Discussion Strange questions

[Sedfrg]

I'm not very good at explaining these things in detail, so it might seem like I'm touching on several topics at once. There's no particular logic or analysis here, so don't take every thought too seriously and don't feel obligated to respond to it.

1. What you wouldn't even say on your deathbed:

Describe what you don't like about yourself, society, biology, and the world in general - but don't worry about conforming to the general consensus, and don't attach any special significance to these words.

2. Do you plan to leave anything behind? Perhaps write a note for your family or on a forum?

3. How exactly did you determine the ideal day to die?

4. "Nothingness," heaven, hell, reincarnation, and similar views; how does this affect your emotional state right now?

5. Are you afraid of "nothingness" after death?

6. Describe the absurd cognitive traps your brain has set for you. (For example: "It's too hot to die today," "My cat will miss me")

7. What are the strangest pieces of advice you've heard from psychologists or "well-wishers"?

8. Will you clear your browser history before you die?"

 

[LeonSoHelpMe]

The nothingness is the literally scariest part for Me. Just knowing it's there. But I try to think how I won't be alone in the nothingness and how people that have died already are currently in this nothingness. That helps me a bit ig…..

 

[itsgone2]

YI'm not very good at explaining these things in detail, so it might seem like I'm touching on several topics at once. There's no particular logic or analysis here, so don't take every thought too seriously and don't feel obligated to respond to it.

1. What you wouldn't even say on your deathbed:

Describe what you don't like about yourself, society, biology, and the world in general - but don't worry about conforming to the general consensus, and don't attach any special significance to these words.

Sorry they're not to be said. I strayed from Christianity though.

2. Do you plan to leave anything behind? Perhaps write a note for your family or on a forum?

Notes to family. Many already exist. Probably not a goodbye thread even though I do enjoy them.

3. How exactly did you determine the ideal day to die?

I haven't. I keep trying and missing. Idea was Sunday. Let work discover I'm missing.

4. "Nothingness," heaven, hell, reincarnation, and similar views; how does this affect your emotional state right now?

I'm Christian but I don't care anymore. I'm in hell already. Maybe it gets worse I don't care just let me go

5. Are you afraid of "nothingness" after death?

No. Probably preferable

6. Describe the absurd cognitive traps your brain has set for you. (For example: "It's too hot to die today," "My cat will miss me")

Too sunny. Too cold.

7. What are the strangest pieces of advice you've heard from psychologists or "well-wishers"?

"You've got another 20 years of work ahead of you ". It was meant as a positive

8. Will you clear your browser history before you die?"

No. It can be found anyway.

 

[coolcow1289]

I'm not very good at explaining these things in detail, so it might seem like I'm touching on several topics at once. There's no particular logic or analysis here, so don't take every thought too seriously and don't feel obligated to respond to it.

1. What you wouldn't even say on your deathbed:

Describe what you don't like about yourself, society, biology, and the world in general - but don't worry about conforming to the general consensus, and don't attach any special significance to these words.

2. Do you plan to leave anything behind? Perhaps write a note for your family or on a forum?

3. How exactly did you determine the ideal day to die?

4. "Nothingness," heaven, hell, reincarnation, and similar views; how does this affect your emotional state right now?

5. Are you afraid of "nothingness" after death?

6. Describe the absurd cognitive traps your brain has set for you. (For example: "It's too hot to die today," "My cat will miss me")

7. What are the strangest pieces of advice you've heard from psychologists or "well-wishers"?

8. Will you clear your browser history before you die?"

1 - I hate happiness as a concept. "Just do what makes you happy lol". I hate how everyone just floats through life without any idea what they're doing and why. But then they have kids and can just offload their meaning and "happiness" onto them, and then grandkids, etc. the meaning of life is consuming crap and procreating. Lamest pyramid scheme ever.
2 - I have around 80k and a car to my name. Pathetic consolation but it's not nothing. And a collection of cow memorabilia.
3 - Day doesn't matter.
4 - it doesn't. I hope there is a heaven. But that's outside my control.
5 - no. Beats somethingness.
6 - "I just have to make it home". I used to live far from home. This one got me through 4-5 years. I'm close to home now. Doesn't work any more.
7 - salt on the tongue. For anxiety.
8 - I will destroy any electronics in my possession. I know relatives might think snooping through that would bring "closure" but none of this reflects who I am in any real way.

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

1. Society is selfish and sometimes dumb, I i wish i know overcoming SI is hard so i wouldn't have made stupid decisions that i have made
2. Yes i will document my ctb on this forum
3. Couple of days after i receive my method. Don't feel like dragging it on much longer
4. Still afraid of uncertainty even now. But since i've attempted once i feel like there's no going back
5. No that's my dream forever unconciousness.
6. It's probably too painful to die, it may look impossible but i'm sure you can do it, what if there's hell.
7. Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems
8 No, i don't have to hide anything.

 

[erpelwatcher]

1. What you wouldn't even say on your deathbed:

Quite a lot of things but I am a christian so yeah,

2. Do you plan to leave anything behind? Perhaps write a note for your family or on a forum?

Yes I want to mainly to make it more easy for the cops to really rule it as a suicide and for my family (who arent that guilty and mainly for closure for them. I have 3k Euros and my PC and some books. Nothing more or less cause I am a collage student so yeah. I wrote my last will that my parents will get all.

3. How exactly did you determine the ideal day to die?

I dont have the Ideal day but I have kind of a deadline with some appointments that I dont want to be there and cant be there.

4. "Nothingness," heaven, hell, reincarnation, and similar views; how does this affect your emotional state right now?

I am a catholic so believe in heaven and hell. I hope for the trial and await it, cause I know what will be said and what I did and didnt do.

5. Are you afraid of "nothingness" after death?

No. Nothingness is nothing and that might be one of the best.

6. Describe the absurd cognitive traps your brain has set for you. (For example: "It's too hot to die today," "My cat will miss me")

It is too rainy, cause I want good weather and need to visit a place. And what about the one that will find you?

7. What are the strangest pieces of advice you've heard from psychologists or "well-wishers"?

You are a man you have to pull through and it is just a phase.


8. Will you clear your browser history before you die?"

I am split. On the one hand I want to destroy everything but the cops will have to investigate (german strict lawys yippieh) so I just think of not clearing it so they dont have to subpoeana google or break into them to make it easier. But i am not sure now. might change it or make a thread here discussing it cause I am still not so sure.