Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and I just wish never suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from the suffering and cruelty of this futile, deeply undesirable existence and there's just so much suffering in existing.

It's all so painful, cruel and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this torturous existence I never would had wished for and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so painful and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I wish I could just choose to never suffer ever again as all I hope for is no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the burden of existence, it's just all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, it's just all so dreadful to me and I just want to be free from it all.

I just want some peace from the terrible, futile abomination of existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish to exist, I wish this existence was never imposed, I just never should had suffered in this existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just want to never exist again with no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain of this dreadful existence just continues and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I never should had been burdened with this cruel, terrible and torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to never wake, I just want all to be gone for me in eternal sleep and for me non-existence is just the only peace, it's all I wish for, it's all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for. I just want to never suffer again and I'll always and only see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me peace but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence.

It's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to suffer rather all I want is to not exist, I'm just always so tired of suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so cruel and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence more than anything, to peacefully and permanently cease existing is just all I hope for, I just want to never exist again and I'd just never wish for the torturous, cruel abomination of existence that just causes so much suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've existed for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never exist again, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence but of course all the suffering of this terrible, dreadful existence just continues.

I'd never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me any peace from this existence where I've suffered for so long, for me only non-existence is positive, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence.

I wish that more than anything I never had to suffer and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered in this painful, futile existence more than anything, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any relief and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be at peace from this painful, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty where all is finally forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It really is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence rather all I want is to never wake.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this existence is finally all gone and I'll just only be at peace once I never suffer again, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence, it's just all so dreadful. I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and it feels like I've been burdened with this existence of futile, unnecessary suffering I never would had chosen and would just never wish for. I just hope for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for this cruel existence to be all gone and no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I really am always wishing to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this cruel, dreadful and torturous existence at all but of course all the suffering continues and it's all so terrible to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to disappear.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to erase my existence, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an abomination to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, I just want to never exist again, all I want is peace from this dreadful, harmful abomination I always saw as a mistake causing endless amounts of suffering and cruelty as a result, it's all so cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer at all rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more suffering rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting to die, all that existence does is just cause harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway, it's all so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always be waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as waiting to die and I just wish I never suffered in this existence where I hope and wait to be gone more than anything, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, existing to me will always be so dreadful.

I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for this existence that causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so futile and torturous to me and I'd just never wish to exist. I'll always find it so dreadful and painful to exist, I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all just so cruel and terrible, it's all very futile, it all just leads to decay and death anyway and to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again truly is just all I hope and wish for, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longe suffer in this existence where I'm just waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always only suffering to me.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

In this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured only non-existence can bring me any peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again.

All I want is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's just all so cruel and painful to me and I just wish I never existed more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen. I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently, all I wish for is no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so painful to me and there's just so much pain in existing, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want peace, I just hope for peace from suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It really is the only peace for me in this existence so cruel and undesirable I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten, I just want peace from this terrible, dreadful and deeply undesirable torturous existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just wish for all to be gone.

I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, I just wish I could choose to peacefully cease existing, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful, terrible existence I always saw as a mistake and I just wish I could cease existing and forget about it all, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this dreadful existence just waiting and hoping for dreamless eternal sleep no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just only be at peace in non-existence.
I really will just only be at peace in non-existence and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake again.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I just always saw as a mistake but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence.

It's all so cruel to me and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the pain of existing and I'll just always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, I really would just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, I just want all to be gone and forgotten in an eternal sleep, peace is just all I hope for.

 

[k1m]

In Iran, under the shah, the secret police would torture dissidents by putting their heads in a metal bucket so all they could hear were their own screams. It would drive people insane.

You're really torturing yourself here. There are dozens and dozens of pages of you saying the exact same thing. Doing something else during the day can help you think this through and be more at peace. Suffering while talking about suffering is so painful and soul-draining, I've been there.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
I truly do find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this dreadful, futile existence just to be tortured by old age.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence really is the only relief, I always find it so torturous, painful and dreadful to exist and I'm just always so tired of suffering.

All I wish and hope for is peace from the suffering of this torturous existence and I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, the thought of being trapped in this existence for much longer is just unbearable to me, I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is denied for me so finally I can be at peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long already, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much pain in existing.
There truly is just so much pain in existing and more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered in this painful, dreadful existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing.

I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence to be all gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered. I'll just always find it so painful and dreadful how there's all this cruelty in existing and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist again and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this painful existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, harmful existence rather all I want is to not exist.

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this harmful existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again, I just wish for this harmful, futile existence to be all forgotten.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as a mistake with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I just wish that more than anything I never existed, I just never should had suffered in this dreadful, futile existence that just causes harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it's just all so cruel to me and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, existence really does just cause harm and I'd just never wish for this harmful, dreadful existence of unnecessary suffering I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always so terrible to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so terrible to exist and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me any peace from suffering in this dreadful existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be permanently free from the dreadful burden of existence.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering continues and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful existence, I wish I could just choose to never wake again and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. It's just all so cruel and painful to me and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, this dreadful harmful existence should just never been imposed and I find it so terrible how it was causing all this pain and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I'd just never want to exist and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel existence more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence.

I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to die, existence is the problem to me and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from.

I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, unnecessary existence more than anything and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll only be at peace in non-existence where finally all is forgotten and I can rest with no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this, it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this dreadful, cruel existence I just never would had chosen and never would wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I wish for this painful, cruel existence to be all gone and forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There really is just so much pain and so much suffering in existing and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so cruel to me and there's just so much pain and suffering in this dreadful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake. All I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this terrible, torturous existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for, I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just only be at peace from suffering in non-existence.
I really will only be at peace from suffering in non-existence and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this futile, torturous and dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone.

I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where I'm just no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as the most dreadful, torturous burden to exist.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me. I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist and only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake causing all this harm and suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I wish I never had to suffer in this futile, deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and there's just so much suffering in existing,

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it a burden to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it a burden to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all so dreadful to me. I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing and only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for, it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a cruel mistake and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, I'll just always find it so burdensome to suffer in this existence just waiting for death and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just pain, problems and suffering there was never a need for and I always suffer so much as a result of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It really is always the problem to me and I wish I never suffered in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake more than anything, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to cease existing and never suffer ever again.

I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where this existence I always saw as the problem is finally all gone and forgotten with no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's all just so dreadful and cruel and I wish I never existed more than anything, I just never should had suffered in this dreadful, futile existence I always saw as a mistake at all but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. It's all so cruel and painful to me and there's just so much pain in this futile, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, all I want is to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible and tragic mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in this dreadful, cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just never wish to suffer.
I really would just never wish to suffer and more than anything I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again.

I wish I was never burdened with this existence more than anything, I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, tragic and dreadful mistake that just causes harm and suffering.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me, all I want is to be gone. I just want to be free from it all, I just want to never exist again, for me non-existence really is all that's positive in this dreadful, unnecessary existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured and the suffering of existing really is endless, it's all so cruel and painful to me and I'll always find it so painful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I wish for, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never had to suffer and there's just so much pain, so much cruelty and so much suffering in this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It really will always be only suffering to me and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence rather all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I wish I never existed, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'd just never wish for any of this and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, futile existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so terrible and I always wish I never existed, I find it the most terrible, harmful tragedy how I had to suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, all I want is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace.
No matter what all I could wish for is peace, I just want to never wake ever again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence is no longer my problem and I'll just always see existence as the problem, more than anything I just wish I never existed.

I wish I was never burdened with this torturous existence where I suffer so unnecessarily, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me. I just want to never wake again, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this torturous, futile existence where all I hope for is non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any peace from this existence I never would had chosen and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence and it's just all so terrible to me, I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this torturous existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I just never should had suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this dreadful existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me.

I just never should had suffered in this torturous cruel existence and I'm always so tired of it all, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, I just want to never exist again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I never would had chosen and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

It's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just want to never wake ever again, I'll just always and only see this dreadful, cruel existence as only suffering, all I want is to never exist again, I just want non-existence to bring me some peace and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep as I'm just always so tired of suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile, dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just an unnecessary harm to me.
It truly is just an unnecessary harm to me and I'll just always find it so dreadful and futile to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway and I always suffer so much from waiting for death in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

I'd just never wish for this cruel, harmful existence rather all I want is to not exist I just wish for this dreadful cruel existence be all gone and forgotten for me, all that existence does is just cause harm torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for non-existence.

I just want to never suffer again with this harmful existence I always saw as a mistake no longer my problem and I just suffer so much as a result of this harmful existence, it's all so cruel to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen. I'll always find it so terrible to suffer in this harmful existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief from suffering and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, all I want is to never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for this cruel, futile and harmful existence of unnecessary suffering I always saw as a mistake and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, futile existence more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is just always so dreadful to me.
I really will always see it as so dreadful to exist and I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with the abomination of existence, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me.


I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and I'd never wish for any of this I suffer so much as a result of this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never wake again and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so cruel and painful to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wale ever again where finally I can be at peace from this dreadful, cruel existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to be gone and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just so terrible and painful to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I'd just never wish for and there's just so much suffering, cruelty and pain in existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and I always wish I never existed, there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in this existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so painful and I'll always find so painful to be conscious suffering in this existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for eternal dreamless sleep.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is eternal sleep, I just wish to be free from all the pain, suffering and cruelty of this dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and dreadful.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and this torturous existence is all forgotten and no longer my concern and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so dreadful to be conscious suffering in this existence, I'll just always find it so terrible to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering, all I want is for no more suffering and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and there's just so much cruelty in this existence I always saw as a mistake, it's just all so cruel and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing.

 

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Never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this cruel, deeply undesirable and torturous existence is finally all forgotten about with no more suffering.

I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully and permanently cease existing, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so cruel to me and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this pain, harm and suffering as a result and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, I really would just never wish for any of this, all I want is to never wake and for me only non-existence is positive, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence, all I want is to never wake ever again and I suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for.