Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and I just wish never suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from the suffering and cruelty of this futile, deeply undesirable existence and there's just so much suffering in existing.

It's all so painful, cruel and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this torturous existence I never would had wished for and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so painful and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I wish I could just choose to never suffer ever again as all I hope for is no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the burden of existence, it's just all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, it's just all so dreadful to me and I just want to be free from it all.

I just want some peace from the terrible, futile abomination of existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish to exist, I wish this existence was never imposed, I just never should had suffered in this existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just want to never exist again with no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain of this dreadful existence just continues and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I never should had been burdened with this cruel, terrible and torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to never wake, I just want all to be gone for me in eternal sleep and for me non-existence is just the only peace, it's all I wish for, it's all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for. I just want to never suffer again and I'll always and only see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway.