Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and I just wish never suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from the suffering and cruelty of this futile, deeply undesirable existence and there's just so much suffering in existing.

It's all so painful, cruel and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this torturous existence I never would had wished for and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so painful and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I wish I could just choose to never suffer ever again as all I hope for is no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the burden of existence, it's just all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, it's just all so dreadful to me and I just want to be free from it all.

I just want some peace from the terrible, futile abomination of existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish to exist, I wish this existence was never imposed, I just never should had suffered in this existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just want to never exist again with no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain of this dreadful existence just continues and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I never should had been burdened with this cruel, terrible and torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to never wake, I just want all to be gone for me in eternal sleep and for me non-existence is just the only peace, it's all I wish for, it's all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for. I just want to never suffer again and I'll always and only see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me peace but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence.

It's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to suffer rather all I want is to not exist, I'm just always so tired of suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so cruel and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence more than anything, to peacefully and permanently cease existing is just all I hope for, I just want to never exist again and I'd just never wish for the torturous, cruel abomination of existence that just causes so much suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've existed for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never exist again, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence but of course all the suffering of this terrible, dreadful existence just continues.

I'd never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me any peace from this existence where I've suffered for so long, for me only non-existence is positive, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence.

I wish that more than anything I never had to suffer and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered in this painful, futile existence more than anything, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any relief and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be at peace from this painful, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty where all is finally forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It really is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence rather all I want is to never wake.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this existence is finally all gone and I'll just only be at peace once I never suffer again, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence, it's just all so dreadful. I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and it feels like I've been burdened with this existence of futile, unnecessary suffering I never would had chosen and would just never wish for. I just hope for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for this cruel existence to be all gone and no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I really am always wishing to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this cruel, dreadful and torturous existence at all but of course all the suffering continues and it's all so terrible to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to disappear.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to erase my existence, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an abomination to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, I just want to never exist again, all I want is peace from this dreadful, harmful abomination I always saw as a mistake causing endless amounts of suffering and cruelty as a result, it's all so cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer at all rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more suffering rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting to die, all that existence does is just cause harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway, it's all so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always be waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as waiting to die and I just wish I never suffered in this existence where I hope and wait to be gone more than anything, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, existing to me will always be so dreadful.

I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for this existence that causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so futile and torturous to me and I'd just never wish to exist. I'll always find it so dreadful and painful to exist, I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all just so cruel and terrible, it's all very futile, it all just leads to decay and death anyway and to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again truly is just all I hope and wish for, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longe suffer in this existence where I'm just waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always only suffering to me.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

In this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured only non-existence can bring me any peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again.

All I want is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's just all so cruel and painful to me and I just wish I never existed more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen. I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently, all I wish for is no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so painful to me and there's just so much pain in existing, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want peace, I just hope for peace from suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It really is the only peace for me in this existence so cruel and undesirable I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten, I just want peace from this terrible, dreadful and deeply undesirable torturous existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just wish for all to be gone.

I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, I just wish I could choose to peacefully cease existing, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful, terrible existence I always saw as a mistake and I just wish I could cease existing and forget about it all, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this dreadful existence just waiting and hoping for dreamless eternal sleep no matter what.