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PepperJam

PepperJam

Pepper and jam on my marmalade.
Jul 27, 2025
2
Empty, but at peace with it. The only thing I really feel is this imminent sense of impending finality. With my closest friend being terminally ill, I know the day she dies, I'll absolutely fall apart mentally and won't have the strength to go on. Life has an almost surreal aspect to it now, as if I'm walking through a memory.
 
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LigottiIsRight

LigottiIsRight

Life is not worth beginning.
Jan 28, 2025
108
I feel deeply bored and tired of being stuck in thought loops (which is almost a daily routine). If I had a gun, I could end things right now.
I think I've reached that point where one isn't keep on living for having reasons to, but for not being able to overcome psychological barriers to die.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Wizard
May 7, 2025
652
I have a mild headache, maybe it will get worse, I don't know. The only time I'm not actively miserable is when I am in a state of malaise. I think I'm in malaise at the moment. The pain and misery will come soon, though. The bank is starting to ramp up the "where is the house payment" attempts to contact. That's going to be a constant thing soon. I don't answer my phone, though. Nobody calls unless it is about a late payment. These are the endtimes, when bills aren't paid and bill collectors start to bother and harass and I'm just waiting to get in the right frame of mind to try and end it all and home my endgame works the first time. Getting closer every day.
 
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ankawannadie

ankawannadie

Member
Mar 31, 2024
16
It feels like Im sinking. Im just scared.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Paragon
May 10, 2025
982
still trapped in my worst nightmare
THE REALITY
not able to end it
I cant stand it anymore
unbearable depression
I want to be freed from my suffering
 
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suicidal_tendencies

suicidal_tendencies

Suicide is a word that resonates within me...
Mar 17, 2025
27
Being lonely
Wanting someone I can cuddle and talk with
Sometimes detached from reality, because I don't want to think about all the difficulties of life that will come
I want to meet Nolla in real life but it doesn't work because she's a fictional character
Thinking about suicide again after a long while
Realising that watching hentai and porn isn't a substitute for a girlfriend
Thinking about my sexuality again and if I really want to get a vaginoplasty (I am still a male)
Was it a good idea for my mental health to come back to this forum?
I should go to bed because it's way too late
 
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Lyn

Lyn

Momentary
Mar 1, 2025
193
I don't feel broken. I feel... gone. Like whatever I was just drifted off one day. Not much left now
 
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XKZyn

XKZyn

Member
Jul 27, 2025
28
Lonely and like I want to rest yet I feel an odd drive to do something with myself but lack the motivation and will to do anything
 
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contentedlyplanning

Member
Jul 26, 2025
10
I feel horribly disgusted by my body (really severe bloating exacerbating body dysmorphia.) I feel like my boyfriend isn't strong enough to prioritize our relationship in his life, even though he cares about me deeply. I feel like I'm never going to get better and I feel so sick of people saying "you just have to give it more time" and "you just have to focus on the good things" and "you just have to learn to love yourself" and all of that. I feel like my lack of hope is increasingly more annoying to the people in group therapy as the weeks pass. I feel like I never should have been born and I wish my mom hadn't saved me from my suicide attempt in 2016 because the doctor said I would have certainly died otherwise. I feel so very, very tired.
 

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