Help third places you can go at 21 if you don't want to be by yourself?

[eggsausagerice]

i feel restless and don't want to be in my house tonight, but i'm probably not going anywhere today because i have a headache and i'm sick. i just want to go somewhere because i feel alone. it's my friend's birthday again and i blocked him because i felt like he doesn't want to talk to me, but now i'm by myself and i'm thinking about how he must be hanging out with his university friends or having doing something and not thinking about me. i don't think i should keep talking to him if i just end wanting to block him and unblock him again, since i don't do it to my other friends because i'm not as close to them. i'm just not very close to any of the people i know, even if i know a lot about them.

i just want to go somewhere so i don't have thoughts about self harm, but texas is really car dependent and i have to buy food at places or i'll get kicked out for loitering. there's barely any benches outside and it's starting to get really hot and humid now that it's may. going out helps me be less wound up and anxious, but i usually have nowhere to go if i don't have plans i arranged with someone.

 

[Quietist]

Local library.

There's people around, but not too many to be overwhelming, they aren't noisy, and you can sit amongst the bookshelves and try to immerse yourself in a book.