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House md i want ketamine

I have tried 2 antidepressants so far. Therapy hasn't helped me at all. 3 years of waste.

Psych recently prescribed me pristiq. I asked her to give me ketamine, but she just deflected and said that I should try Pristiq first.

Thing is, I don't have time. I have an entrance exam in a month, and I can't study while being depressed.
I will ctb if it doesn't go well. And I've deliberated a lot about it. I must kill myself if it doesn't go well.

ketamine is the only legal fast acting antidepressant available in my shithole country(India)

I need to *not be* depressed fast or I will almost certainly kill myself

If anyone lives in India can you help me? I don't have any hope left.
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I wish I could help. Can you find a drug dealer at college? Or find a new doctor?
 
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i do ketamine recreationally and respectfully i have no idea at all how it's used to "treat depression". probably works very differently i guess in small doses but in my experience it's much so a downer and makes you detach from reality
 
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I wish I could help. Can you find a drug dealer at college? Or find a new doctor?
I can't...I'm really broke and the only way I can possibly access it is through a government hospital.

It's also supposed to be given through IV and for around an hour so recreational doses won't work.
i do ketamine recreationally and respectfully i have no idea at all how it's used to "treat depression". probably works very differently i guess in small doses but in my experience it's much so a downer and makes you detach from reality
It's given thru an IV for an hour or so I've read. If I could access a drug dealer I would rather use Psilocybin shrooms because they are less likely to be cut with things like fent.. But I'm broke and my parents aren't gonna lend me money.
 
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learn to use dark net markets

Dark Net Market Bible:
http://biblemeowimkh3utujmhm6oh2oeb3ubjw2lpgeq3lahrfr2l6ev6zgyd.onion/ (launch this on the TOR browser)

That's a very risky reply. I would suggest OP to avoid this.

OP would be taking a dangerous risk ordering drugs illegally, both in terms of legality and purity. In some countries the risk is higher than others. Indexes aren't always reliable anyway. For someone who is not familiar with using such markets, it honestly would be better for them to look for other alternatives. If someone is already miserable, the last suggestion would be to find another alternative, like going to another doctor. Not risking prison time.

23. Punishment for illegal import into India, export from India or transhipment of narcotic drugs and psychotropic substances.—Whoever, in contravention of any provision of this Act or any rule or order made or condition of licence or permit granted or certificate or authorisation issued thereunder, imports into India or exports from India or tranships any narcotic drug or psychotropic substance shall be punishable,—

(a) where the contravention involves small quantity, with rigorous imprisonment for a term which may extend to 1[one year], or with fine which may extend to ten thousand rupees, or with both;

(b) where the contravention involves quantity lesser than commercial quantity but greater than small quantity, with rigorous imprisonment for a term which may extend to ten years, and with fine which may extend to one lakh rupees;

(c) where the contravention involves commercial quantity, with rigorous imprisonment for a term which shall not be less than ten years but which may extend to twenty years, and shall also be liable to fine which shall not be less than one lakh rupees but which may extend to two lakh rupees:

Provided that the court may, for reasons to be recorded in the judgment, impose a fine exceeding two lakh rupees.]
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That's a very risky reply. I would suggest OP to avoid this.

OP would be taking a dangerous risk ordering drugs illegally, both in terms of legality and purity. In some countries the risk is higher than others. Indexes aren't always reliable anyway. For someone who is not familiar with using such markets, it honestly would be better for them to look for other alternatives. If someone is already miserable, the last suggestion would be to find another alternative, like going to another doctor. Not risking prison time.


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More risky than suicide? The doctors are gatekeepers, and they would rather we die then prescribe us anything that could help. For example, amphetamines help a certain percentage of people with treatment resistant depression (says the research), but no one will prescribe them.

By the time you are bed bound and/or constantly suicidal, what is worse. Most years lost to disability is the global burden of depression.

I promise you, if the doctors suffered like we do, they would be equally desperate.

I unfortunately cannot use the dark net, bevause I dont pass their 'are you a human' tests. But there are quality reviews on there, and you can test your drugs.

In the USA, they have ketamine nasal spray, IV ketamine, ketsmine lozenges they have used in old age homes. UK, I can't get access. I am getting carers because I cannot look after myself. Disability benefits.
Id rather try angthing that could work. Or just not be here.

Back to tje other bit of the forum fpr me
 
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More risky than suicide? The doctors are gatekeepers, and they would rather we die then prescribe us anything that could help. For example, amphetamines help a certain percentage of people with treatment resistant depression (says the research), but no one will prescribe them.

By the time you are bed bound and/or constantly suicidal, what is worse. Most years lost to disability is the global burden of depression.

I promise you, if the doctors suffered like we do, they would be equally desperate.

I unfortunately cannot use the dark net, bevause I dont pass their 'are you a human' tests. But there are quality reviews on there, and you can test your drugs.

In the USA, they have ketamine nasal spray, IV ketamine, ketsmine lozenges they have used in old age homes. UK, I can't get access. I am getting carers because I cannot look after myself. Disability benefits.
Id rather try angthing that could work. Or just not be here.

Back to tje other bit of the forum fpr me

Yes, more risky than suicide, my reply explains it specifically for OP.

Suffering is worse than suicide.

When I say more risky than suicide, I mean in the methods of getting the ketamine, unless you get scammed or fall for the honeypots. Again, read my comment. I don't know which captchas you're getting of which you can't pass them. Reviews can be falsified and so can they "offers" for testing. You're not mentioning a specific site, and I'm not telling you to do so on here, but the amount of websites out there makes it easy for someone unfamiliar to get their hands on actual drugs. Saying "there are quality reviews on there" literally means nothing with the amount of sites active online.

It's like saying that there is a bunch of quality reviews for boots, but there are hundereds of thousands of websites that sell boots, a good chunk being scams as well.

The safest (not 100% safe either) method to get drugs would be locally with contacts, other than that, it's a a bigger risk not always worth taking depending on the circumstances. Another method would be getting different opinions.

I know ketamine is offered in many countries, and is hard to acquire. I've tried to get it myself as it is available here, but have not been approved. The risk being prison time or paying heavy fines which they may not be able to afford, that could lead to consequences such as the government taking your belongings to make up for it or increase prison time if you have nothing. In countries like India, it's not even remotely close to the treatment you'd get in my country, UK or EVEN the US. I am not shitting on India as a country, but I am rather taking that into consideration as the conditions, unlike in the west, will likely not accommodate for their prisoners even with needs.

Prison condition in India are bad and unhealthy as they are "frequently life threatening" and do not meet international standards. Prisons were severely overcrowded with an occupancy rate of 114%.[28] Prison lacks so much funding that in some areas occupancy level is as high as 277%;[29] almost three times the permitted capacity.
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That's a very risky reply. I would suggest OP to avoid this.

OP would be taking a dangerous risk ordering drugs illegally, both in terms of legality and purity. In some countries the risk is higher than others. Indexes aren't always reliable anyway. For someone who is not familiar with using such markets, it honestly would be better for them to look for other alternatives. If someone is already miserable, the last suggestion would be to find another alternative, like going to another doctor. Not risking prison time.


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sometimes i remember that this forum is filled with hypocritical people. If he follows the right opsec and follows the guide he wont get caught unless he buys insane bulk amounts. Also this forum literally has sources on where to obtain materials FOR suicide, how is this any less "risky". I dont know what the shipping laws are like in india but i can imagine if its personal ammount of ket they will have bigger fish to fry (esp if you got bribe money).

Besides, modern day therapy (esp in india i can imagine as a indian out of all the places) is like 80% gaslighting by a psychologist who never have a fuck about you in the first place.
 
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sometimes i remember that this forum is filled with hypocritical people. If he follows the right opsec and follows the guide he wont get caught unless he buys insane bulk amounts. Also this forum literally has sources on where to obtain materials FOR suicide, how is this any less "risky". I dont know what the shipping laws are like in india but i can imagine if its personal ammount of ket they will have bigger fish to fry (esp if you got bribe money).

Besides, modern day therapy (esp in india i can imagine as a indian out of all the places) is like 80% gaslighting by a psychologist who never have a fuck about you in the first place.
You're interpreting my comment being hypocritial for discouraging OP to get ketamine. I am simply pointing out the method of getting the ketamine itself.

Yes, forum is filled with sources to get materials for suicide. But you say it yourself: For suicide. Your classic sources posted on here do not encourage importing either, and also different sources than this thread. If caught with a deadly chemical like SN, the way customs mark it is massively different to something that is categorised as a drug. The law varies depending on what the use is for, what kind of drug or chemical it is, and what it is legally categorised as in the country (not scientific definition).

Basically, a person buying something for suicide is treated differently in a legal case for the very most countries, especially as the item itself is in a grey area.

India doesn't take illegally drugs lightly. They follow a quantity based sentencing. As I have replied to you previously, you can find the source. India is a wealthy nation. It is only seen as "poor" due to their distribution issues within the country for the population.

I can assure you as a person with roots from a third world country, just because police can be corrupt and you can pay yourself out of it, it doesn't include drugs at all. It is not a single police officer seeing it, it is first marked internally in processing by customs.

I'm not saying therapy is an effective method lmao, I didn't even suggest it. I suggested seeing different doctors because what makes a person qualify varies based on how the doctor processes the info given and their understanding of options. I have also responded in the thread saying that if they really want to get it illegally, it is safer to get it locally through getting contacts.

Opsec does not remove or avoid the actual processing of customs inspections. It ends up in processing every time, and you'll never know if they manage to spot it with their equipment, or even randomly selected inspection. You could order a package from Temu and they might open it as a random check, even if they know they'll likely find nothing.
 
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You're interpreting my comment being hypocritial for discouraging OP to get ketamine. I am simply pointing out the method of getting the ketamine itself.

Yes, forum is filled with sources to get materials for suicide. But you say it yourself: For suicide. Your classic sources posted on here do not encourage importing either, and are warning the risks. If caught with a deadly chemical like SN, the way customs mark it is massively different to something that is categorised as a drug. The law varies depending on what the use is for, what kind of drug or chemical it is, and what it is legally categorised as in the country (not scientific definition).

Basically, a person buying something for suicide is treated differently in a legal case for the very most countries, especially as the item itself is in a grey area.

India doesn't take illegally drugs lightly. They follow a quantity based sentencing. As I have replied to you previously, you can find the source. India is a wealthy nation. It is only seen as "poor" due to their distribution issues within the country for the population.

I can assure you as a person with roots from a third world country, just because police can be corrupt and you can pay yourself out of it, it doesn't include drugs at all. It is not a single police officer seeing it, it is first marked internally in processing by customs.

I'm not saying therapy is an effective method lmao, I didn't even suggest it. I suggested seeing different doctors because what makes a person qualify varies based on how the doctor processes the info given and their understanding of options. I have also responded in the thread saying that if they really want to get it illegally, it is safer to get it locally through getting contacts.

Opsec does not remove or avoid the actual processing of customs inspections. It ends up in processing every time, and you'll never know if they manage to spot it with their equipment, or even randomly selected inspection. You could order a package from Temu and they might open it as a random check, even if they know they'll likely find nothing.
alright thats a fair point I cannot lie.

However I want to say

India doesn't take illegally drugs lightly. They follow a quantity based sentencing. As I have replied to you previously, you can find the source. India is a wealthy nation. It is only seen as "poor" due to their distribution issues within the country for the population.

while this is true, india does have a lot of weed farms like in states of Tamil Nadu. India also makes a lot of drugs (not just recreational ones like heroin, meth and ketamine). This isn't even going into what india's neighbors does.

Opsec does not remove or avoid the actual processing of customs inspections. It ends up in processing every time, and you'll never know if they manage to spot it with their equipment, or even randomly selected inspection. You could order a package from Temu and they might open it as a random check, even if they know they'll likely find nothing.

it really depends on the laws. For example in the states ordering weed is now comically easy since postal workers dont really give a fuck and....well its weed not fent. Also there needs to be probable cause/warrant to open the package.
I have also responded in the thread saying that if they really want to get it illegally, it is safer to get it locally through getting contacts.
Not everyone can get their contacts via the street. Afaik the biggest drugs sold on the street in india are either weed or any opium based products along with meth and maybe mdma or other party drugs here and there. This is not to mention street drugs are often lower purity and have a even higher chance of being laced with bad chemicals compared to dark net market drugs which has shown to be reputable for having high-quality drugs that arent laced with anything (and are cheaper than street drugs in some cases).
 
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ladidabi

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alright thats a fair point I cannot lie.

However I want to say



while this is true, india does have a lot of weed farms like in states of Tamil Nadu. India also makes a lot of drugs (not just recreational ones like heroin, meth and ketamine). This isn't even going into what india's neighbors does.



it really depends on the laws. For example in the states ordering weed is now comically easy since postal workers dont really give a fuck and....well its weed not fent. Also there needs to be probable cause/warrant to open the package.

Not everyone can get their contacts via the street. Afaik the biggest drugs sold on the street in india are either weed or any opium based products along with meth and maybe mdma or other party drugs here and there. This is not to mention street drugs are often lower purity and have a even higher chance of being laced with bad chemicals compared to dark net market drugs which has shown to be reputable for having high-quality drugs that arent laced with anything (and are cheaper than street drugs in some cases).
I suggest peeking on the main post of this thread. I am not Indian and do not come from there. I live in a country with a prison system that treat their prisoners better than psych patients. Our prisons look like borderline hotel rooms and offer good accommodations for those that need it. I replied to your initial comment because I decided to take my time to read a bit on the topic in India.

https://www.aljazeera.com/economy/2...ers-risk-jail-to-grow-lucrative-cannabis-crop

I have roots in an African country where illegal cannabis farms operate. There is a reason why it's called "weed". Cannabis is so resilient you can burn down the farm and it just spawns back. India is also another country where the climate is ideal for it to thrive. Most farms usually start from the plant itself just growing naturally due to environment that makes it thrive alone, hence the illegal farms are in small forest villages and mountains where there is less law enforcement present. This does not remove the fact the law enforcement in India has in the recent years started to crack down on them. This does not include legal farms because they're used for industry and medicine.

Because of placement of such farms, Tamil Nadu is not considered the major ones, however, law enforcement does look out:
https://thefederal.com/category/sta...alin-govt-zero-ganja-claims-opposition-223411

For weed, they can crack down on it but it will still find a way to grow even without humans. They can however take down those who are using and working with it. Ketamine and other drugs are not so natural lol. People who have those growing in their animal/veggie farm or people living near a forest within their own land, and want to avoid legal trouble frequently burn the plant, even though it's an endless battle, that's just what they do.

it really depends on the laws. For example in the states ordering weed is now comically easy since postal workers dont really give a fuck and....well its weed not fent. Also there needs to be probable cause/warrant to open the package.
This is comical to me because:
1. It's not postal workers ≠ customs.
2. NDPS Act (Section 42 and 43). see 42 here, see 43 here.

Can be anything from a tip, high-risk area, or reasons from packaging. Intuition alone to open a package may not be legally bounding, but it can be a baseline to check a package in the position of the officer and where the search is done. Think of it like how airport security functions. I have worked for the government in my own country, includes drug related instances, though the field is not specific to it: when you're in the field and learn how to express reasoning, you very often get things your way in terms of a task, without much effort and time, especially with how to formulate your words in a legal setting and proper protocol.

Weed and ketamine are not comparable though. Ketamine is more harmful than weed in terms of strength and active per gram. It's literally the reason why ketamine is used on site with staff and carefully dosed. Though still classified in their own categories in India like the rest of the world, India stands out because they treat them both equally by law. Ket is legal in India for monitored medical use.

The US has a fent problem, along with the large amount of packages coming into the US, they are actively prioritising deadly drugs rather than weed. You say it depends on laws, and you are correct. However, if you're going to respond to a person from another country of yours, you're better off not replying at all, or doing research on how they handle narcotics and if law enforcement is in an ongoing or is starting a campaign. India is doing exactly that right now. They are currently running on a zero-tolerance policy, and their laws reflect this. In the US, small amount of drugs are treated much more lightly.

Packages within India cannot be sent anonymously both ways. As for packages from outside of India, it's possible to be a sender without name and address through post. I am aware that India is unlucky in terms of geo placement, since their neighbors traffic a lot of the drugs in and out of India with their operations. If you want to read a bit, this is a good conclusive report, though a bit outdated since it's from 2019, information on drug sources and status of their neighbors still apply:
https://jgu.s3.ap-south-1.amazonaws.com/jsia/Drug+trafficking.pdf

Although still an issue, it still does not remove the fact that they're actively in the process of shutting it down, so it's really not worth the risk at all. They have invested in this. This is how tourists are sent to prison and then deported after their sentencing without bail. You are promoting something that will land a person in jail if caught. If there are frequent and recent crackdowns, it's best to lay low at all costs. It's not very fun being suicidal and a prisoner. If they have eyes on one operation, it's easier to get linked to others. As for ordering on the darknet, quality depends on the source. Even then, see my previous reply on the risks. The benefits do not outweigh it in a country like India.

I have mentioned in this thread that street-drugs are not safe either, but it is easier to remove the risk of not being identified. Again, their best bet is consulting another doctor because of the severe consequences if busted. OP can seek another opinion and it's within their right to do so. As many "second" opinions as they are physically able to get. They can first of all advocate without begging, or they can also seek a certified online doctor to document that previous methods of treatment (not therapy alone, but also failed medication), to suggest next possible steps. The online doctor bit has become quite universal.

Although some sources state the option for bail if the court concludes the intent and the amount if within their definition of personal use, it does risk losing certain advantages in the country you'd normally have. IF you get a good lawyer and can afford bail, which is a lot for most people in India as is. Is it really worth the risk going through such risk along with possible family problems as a result? I don't think so. Again, best option is to try other medical professionals.
 
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I suggest peeking on the main post of this thread. I am not Indian and do not come from there. I live in a country with a prison system that treat their prisoners better than psych patients. Our prisons look like borderline hotel rooms and offer good accommodations for those that need it. I replied to your initial comment because I decided to take my time to read a bit on the topic in India.

https://www.aljazeera.com/economy/2...ers-risk-jail-to-grow-lucrative-cannabis-crop

I have roots in an African country where illegal cannabis farms operate. There is a reason why it's called "weed". Cannabis is so resilient you can burn down the farm and it just spawns back. India is also another country where the climate is ideal for it to thrive. Most farms usually start from the plant itself just growing naturally due to environment that makes it thrive alone, hence the illegal farms are in small forest villages and mountains where there is less law enforcement present. This does not remove the fact the law enforcement in India has in the recent years started to crack down on them. This does not include legal farms because they're used for industry and medicine.

Because of placement of such farms, Tamil Nadu is not considered the major ones, however, law enforcement does look out:
https://thefederal.com/category/sta...alin-govt-zero-ganja-claims-opposition-223411

For weed, they can crack down on it but it will still find a way to grow even without humans. They can however take down those who are using and working with it. Ketamine and other drugs are not so natural lol. People who have those growing in their animal/veggie farm or people living near a forest within their own land, and want to avoid legal trouble frequently burn the plant, even though it's an endless battle, that's just what they do.


This is comical to me because:
1. It's not postal workers ≠ customs.
2. NDPS Act (Section 42 and 43). see 42 here, see 43 here.

Can be anything from a tip, high-risk area, or reasons from packaging. Intuition alone to open a package may not be legally bounding, but it can be a baseline to check a package in the position of the officer and where the search is done. Think of it like how airport security functions. I have worked for the government in my own country, includes drug related instances, though the field is not specific to it: when you're in the field and learn how to express reasoning, you very often get things your way in terms of a task, without much effort and time, especially with how to formulate your words in a legal setting and proper protocol.

Weed and ketamine are not comparable though. Ketamine is more harmful than weed in terms of strength and active per gram. It's literally the reason why ketamine is used on site with staff and carefully dosed. Though still classified in their own categories in India like the rest of the world, India stands out because they treat them both equally by law. Ket is legal in India for monitored medical use.

The US has a fent problem, along with the large amount of packages coming into the US, they are actively prioritising deadly drugs rather than weed. You say it depends on laws, and you are correct. However, if you're going to respond to a person from another country of yours, you're better off not replying at all, or doing research on how they handle narcotics and if law enforcement is in an ongoing or is starting a campaign. India is doing exactly that right now. They are currently running on a zero-tolerance policy, and their laws reflect this. In the US, small amount of drugs are treated much more lightly.

Packages within India cannot be sent anonymously both ways. As for packages from outside of India, it's possible to be a sender without name and address through post. I am aware that India is unlucky in terms of geo placement, since their neighbors traffic a lot of the drugs in and out of India with their operations. If you want to read a bit, this is a good conclusive report, though a bit outdated since it's from 2019, information on drug sources and status of their neighbors still apply:
https://jgu.s3.ap-south-1.amazonaws.com/jsia/Drug+trafficking.pdf

Although still an issue, it still does not remove the fact that they're actively in the process of shutting it down, so it's really not worth the risk at all. They have invested in this. This is how tourists are sent to prison and then deported after their sentencing without bail. You are promoting something that will land a person in jail if caught. If there are frequent and recent crackdowns, it's best to lay low at all costs. It's not very fun being suicidal and a prisoner. If they have eyes on one operation, it's easier to get linked to others. As for ordering on the darknet, quality depends on the source. Even then, see my previous reply on the risks. The benefits do not outweigh it in a country like India.

I have mentioned in this thread that street-drugs are not safe either, but it is easier to remove the risk of not being identified. Again, their best bet is consulting another doctor because of the severe consequences if busted. OP can seek another opinion and it's within their right to do so. As many "second" opinions as they are physically able to get. They can first of all advocate without begging, or they can also seek a certified online doctor to document that previous methods of treatment (not therapy alone, but also failed medication), to suggest next possible steps. The online doctor bit has become quite universal.

Although some sources state the option for bail if the court concludes the intent and the amount if within their definition of personal use, it does risk losing certain advantages in the country you'd normally have. IF you get a good lawyer and can afford bail, which is a lot for most people in India as is. Is it really worth the risk going through such risk along with possible family problems as a result? I don't think so. Again, best option is to try other medical professionals.
Indian police is corrupt and shit. I don't wanna deal with them. I am trying to grow shrooms right now, but I am pretty sure that things won't work out. I really do believe that whatever is wrong with me is innate and unchangeable. No substance will ever fix me, and I don't really care anymore. I don't think that I would even care if my shroom grow fails, seeing as I would probably kill myself before they're ready. I'm sorry but I don't have the energy to reply to all of the messages in this thread, Thanks for trying to help. Peace and love.
 
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