If u could CTB right now would you!

[hmnow]

If you were guaranteed a quick painless death right now. Would you choose it

I have to think from time to time I should just do it now so I'd take the offer

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Guaranteed a critical success?

But im having too much fun being alive

 

[Quietist]

The logical part of me wants to say yes, because weighing the alternative, I know that my problems won't rectify outside of a literal fucking miracle.

But the idealistic (and fearful) part of me is still holding out for a better life or hoping to get rectified with God or some shit before dying.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course and I'd be long gone from this terrible, torturous and dreadful existence if I could access such, all I want is the peace of non-existence, I'll just always see existence as a mistake that only ever tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence truly is an abomination and it's so terrible how this existence was imposed.

I just wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the torturous, futile burden of existence rather I just want true permanent peace, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way and it's just so horrible to me how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the terrible extreme agony of old age.

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

Absolutely. I wouldn't mind dying at any moment—especially if it was quick and painless. I'd feel bad for whoever has to witness it (if anyone), but...

I GOTTA PUT ME FIRST.

 

[Fadenself00_]

Have a method, but no, not yet.. Still a med to try for my SI to give in

 

[Kokonoe]

yes. without hesitation.

 

[volo]

If you were guaranteed a quick painless death right now. Would you choose it

I have to think from time to time I should just do it now so I'd take the offer

Oh Definitely. But none of the methods we have are that: guaranteed, or quick, or painless

 

[iwkmsssb]

i want to but i'm scared of what i'll leave behind, but i really should take the offer

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

Absolutely yes.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i think i would. I've lived long enough, there's nothing better from here on

 

[Scaredycat]

Dream come true

 

[hdead]

Not right now. Practical reasons. But, rather soon? Yes please.

 

[Oiled Sandwich]

Fuck yes. Give me that sweet release I've been seeking.

 

[creepoftheeast]

If you were guaranteed a quick painless death right now. Would you choose it

I have to think from time to time I should just do it now so I'd take the offer

yes, most likely, I would. It always circles back to this feeling, and it's probably the only sane thought I ever think.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

If you were guaranteed a quick painless death right now. Would you choose it

I have to think from time to time I should just do it now so I'd take the offer

I would do it, without thinking a micro-second of it, it would be now or never choice

 

[Mrs. T-800]

Yes, I think so. Not in this exact moment. It's a dark grey sky right now. If I could go up into my room when it's a sunny afternoon, lay down in bed, begin to daydream, and close my eyes to never more open them… it'd be good ending. I would like that very much.

 

[A Beautiful Walk]

Yes

 

[ZeroRedz02]

Yes, I think so. Not in this exact moment. It's a dark grey sky right now. If I could go up into my room when it's a sunny afternoon, lay down in bed, begin to daydream, and close my eyes to never more open them… it'd be good ending. I would like that very much.

I do that too i hope i will not open my eyes anymore everytime i sleep but that is realistically theoretically impossible because we are young people

 

[lpdsvm]

Yes. If it's right now only, then I would grab the chance to CTB and leave all this insignificant cr$p. I would even stream it and say whatever I wanted.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Probably not. My suicide ideation is very real but I'm pretty mentally content right now and have been for a while. Distancing myself from stressful situations and having the time and space to reflect on myself a lot has helped me overall feel calmer and deal with my bpd a lot better. I still have a long way to go of course and I still suffer significantly but I'm better than before.