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The Disqualified

The Disqualified

Disqualified as a Human Being
Feb 4, 2023
226
I can't sleep properly. I have been bed rotting so much lately. I literally couldn't get out of bed till now.
I have my SN. A part of me really wants to die. But I fear regretting it. I really wished I had the impulsivity to just go through it and end my suffering.
But self-doubt consumes me even in my suicide.

I really have given up on living life and just doomscroll 24/7. I promised to myself today I will try to get out of bed and do... something. Something. Anything.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,687
I'm in the same spot. I'm so sorry. Life shouldn't be this way
 
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Chocomel

Chocomel

Chocolate Milk
Jan 13, 2024
117
Yeah I feel you. Everything I do just feel so forced. If I don't do it, I get consequences.
 
HeyBoogahJr

HeyBoogahJr

I'm still here.
Apr 25, 2026
48
I can't sleep properly. I have been bed rotting so much lately. I literally couldn't get out of bed till now.
I have my SN. A part of me really wants to die. But I fear regretting it. I really wished I had the impulsivity to just go through it and end my suffering.
But self-doubt consumes me even in my suicide.

I really have given up on living life and just doomscroll 24/7. I promised to myself today I will try to get out of bed and do... something. Something. Anything.
What do you fear about regretting it? Do you want to die, is there something you wanna do before then? I'm sorry to hear that your suffering, I understand how you feel. I'm glad you shared your feelings.

What do you wanna do? How about doing something small?
 

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