I jumped 8 stories

[fightclub17]

I jumped 8 stories and survived. I woke up after a week coma, spent 3 months in hospital/rehab. I have life altering injures and scars. Everyone asks me what happened to me. I'm a walking (barely) failure and my trauma is visible, and will be for the rest of my life! I have lost friends and family. My reputation is tainted. I can't work. My husband wants a divorce. I've been forced to move into my parent's house and they physically abused me last night. I wish I fucking died!!!

Hopefully sharing my story stops someone from considering jumping as their method.

 

[absolute failure]

We both experienced abuse amd have to stick it out until the SN arrives, stay strong

 

[fightclub17]

We both experienced abuse amd have to stick it out until the SN arrives, stay strong

I'm so sorry to hear that! It's so violating.

 

[letmegetout]

I'm so sorry you've had such a traumatic time

 

[geepeedee]

I jumped 8 stories and survived. I woke up after a week coma, spent 3 months in hospital/rehab. I have life altering injures and scars. Everyone asks me what happened to me. I'm a walking (barely) failure and my trauma is visible, and will be for the rest of my life! I have lost friends and family. My reputation is tainted. I can't work. My husband wants a divorce. I've been forced to move into my parent's house and they physically abused me last night. I wish I fucking died!!!

Hopefully sharing my story stops someone from considering jumping as their method.

What a harrowing story! I hope you find your peace.

 

[meddle]

im so sorry this happened, friend. you deserved a peaceful departure, not living through this hell. and your husband wants to leave you in your most vulnerable moment... im so sorry

 

[iveseenfootage]

I can't imagine… I hope you find the peace & freedom you deserve.

 

[saikou]

im so sorry this happened to you!
wishing you peace no matter what happens

can i ask what the lifelong complications you have now are, if you dont mind? im sorry if thats offensive to ask

 

[Untoten_]

I jumped 8 stories and survived. I woke up after a week coma, spent 3 months in hospital/rehab. I have life altering injures and scars. Everyone asks me what happened to me. I'm a walking (barely) failure and my trauma is visible, and will be for the rest of my life! I have lost friends and family. My reputation is tainted. I can't work. My husband wants a divorce. I've been forced to move into my parent's house and they physically abused me last night. I wish I fucking died!!!

Hopefully sharing my story stops someone from considering jumping as their method.

This is what I mean when I say "Every single time I'm on this site I realise, it's everyone else's fault not the OP."

Like reading some stuff doesn't make me upset it boils my blood reading how some people get treat.

As someone who genuinely tries to treat everyone nicely and gently, no matter how stupid I look for doing so, stuff like this just pisses me off to the point I have to skim read it.

 

[May16th]

It's crazy how it feels like the ones who want it the most can't achieve it. Meanwhile, when I was around 12, a girl at my school fell from the balcony of her 2nd-story apartment, fractured her skull and neck, and ended up dying at the age of 14. Life can be so cruel sometimes.

 

[aallsskksskk]

I jumped 8 stories and survived. I woke up after a week coma, spent 3 months in hospital/rehab. I have life altering injures and scars. Everyone asks me what happened to me. I'm a walking (barely) failure and my trauma is visible, and will be for the rest of my life! I have lost friends and family. My reputation is tainted. I can't work. My husband wants a divorce. I've been forced to move into my parent's house and they physically abused me last night. I wish I fucking died!!!

Hopefully sharing my story stops someone from considering jumping as their method.

Terrifying. So sorry this happened to you... it's really incredible what the human body is capable of. Trying to save itself, against your own will.

I hope you'll find your way from this mess

 

[fightclub17]

im so sorry this happened to you!
wishing you peace no matter what happens

can i ask what the lifelong complications you have now are, if you dont mind? im sorry if thats offensive to ask

I may be losing my leg...

 

[violetforever]

i know this means nothing but i admire how after/during all of that, u still consider other people

 

[hopeless302]

I'm so sorry. Thanks for sharing your story. But know this, you're more than just a cautionary tale. If God exists, I hope he shines His light upon you, and you experience some physical and mental relief. Wishing you all the comfort in the world.

 

[lysergamide]

Love I'm so sorry this happened to you. It's very unfair how the world is to you. It's always don't kys you have so much to live for and when you miss and have lifelong alterating injuries everyone thinks you're a burden. And I'm saying this with all objectivity: who can blame you?
Had you succeeded people would've hailed you as an angel left too soon or what the fuck ever sometimes it's like you're better off dead because people just don't want to deal with that.
It's not that life has so much to offer and it's gonna get better it's more like nobody truly cares, is what it feels like

 

[wine is fine but]

your story somehow gets sadder every day

you were so brave to do what you did. i have no doubts (from some personal experience) that it is much easier to trick yourself into pulling a trigger, falling into a noose, or many other ways, but to do what you did takes a serious amount of bravery and the reward you got was horrific injuries. life was never meant to be fair, but it does not need to be so freaking cruel

over the last few days i have had an 80's song from a strayan pub rock band rose tattoo on my mind. it chorus goes "i wish there was something i could say. something to ease the pain away". sadly we cannot do anything for you, but hope for a miracle and your pain and suffering can come to an end and let you go back to pre insomnia days

 

[rigsid]

Your story breaks my heart. Thinking of you.

 

[SuicidalBoredom]

I was thinking I could perhaps off myself jumping from 6 stories. Reading thru this forum helped me realize it's way too big a risk. I wish there was an easy way out. Thanks for sharing your story.

 

[fightclub17]

I was thinking I could perhaps off myself jumping from 6 stories. Reading thru this forum helped me realize it's way too big a risk. I wish there was an easy way out. Thanks for sharing your story.

I'm glad I could stop someone from agony. Literally any other method would be better than jumping. Even though people have died from much lower heights, it's just not worth the risk.

 

[ForgetIExist]

I jumped 8 stories and survived. I woke up after a week coma, spent 3 months in hospital/rehab. I have life altering injures and scars. Everyone asks me what happened to me. I'm a walking (barely) failure and my trauma is visible, and will be for the rest of my life! I have lost friends and family. My reputation is tainted. I can't work. My husband wants a divorce. I've been forced to move into my parent's house and they physically abused me last night. I wish I fucking died!!!

Hopefully sharing my story stops someone from considering jumping as their method.

I'm so incredibly sorry that you are being forced to live through all this abuse! I hope now people see this before they go through with jumping. I used to fantasize about jumping all the time but didn't for these very reasons. Thank you for providing an experience that can help others and save them from pain

 

[voidblankmore1]

I'm so sorry. You're so strong for going through this and incredibly kind for trying to warn others wishing you all the best with your recovery

 

[RedFruit]

I jumped 8 stories and survived. I woke up after a week coma, spent 3 months in hospital/rehab. I have life altering injures and scars. Everyone asks me what happened to me. I'm a walking (barely) failure and my trauma is visible, and will be for the rest of my life! I have lost friends and family. My reputation is tainted. I can't work. My husband wants a divorce. I've been forced to move into my parent's house and they physically abused me last night. I wish I fucking died!!!

Hopefully sharing my story stops someone from considering jumping as their method.

I'm sorry that you are having to live with this suffering :(
I have thought about jumping multiple times as there are many accessible places where I live. This will definitely deter me from the method for awhile.
Always here to talk and support if you need. I seriously hope things get better for you.

 

[BadChanges]

Im very sad for you. Im so sorry. I wouldn't be able to cope. I hope you find peace

 

[wine is fine but]

I don't feel very brave anymore now I'm just hoping to get my hands on SN otherwise I'll have to take more drastic measures. I'm not sure what.

courage comes in all different shapes and forms

you have bared your soul to random strangers - for sure, we are nameless, faceless strangers, but everyone here (and most off this site) are still very vulnerable when it comes to sharing our deepest secrets, so that took real courage
you are constantly reliving your tragic situation to try and help others

you have been and still are very brave. you are not hiding from your situation, but facing up to it head on, which is the very epitome of bravery

This! People don't see the sheer courage and strength it takes to fight through all of this. They have no sympathy because well 'you did it to yourself'

you didn't really do it to yourself though. for many of us on this site, that line could be true. perhaps i have the wrong terminology, but yours was from a form of medical psychosis. the medicine they gave you brought this on. that makes it even more tragic. obviously there was a problem to begin with in the form of insomnia, which would be harrowing enough, but from what you have told us, the medication did it all . . . as well as medical staff not listening or just being incompetent

either way, a person could expect at the very least, their parents to care about them, and while i do not know anything about your personal life, as far as your husband goes, one line comes to me "for better or for worse". it would be tough on all of them, but love should shine through in the darkest hours

 

[DeadManLiving]

Heartbreaking. Are you able to ambulate on your own?

 

[Matchaaa]

I'm sorry you had to go through that.Your parents shouldn't treat you like this.You deserve peace and freedom from suffering.I hope you find peace.

 

[fightclub17]

courage comes in all different shapes and forms

you have bared your soul to random strangers - for sure, we are nameless, faceless strangers, but everyone here (and most off this site) are still very vulnerable when it comes to sharing our deepest secrets, so that took real courage
you are constantly reliving your tragic situation to try and help others

you have been and still are very brave. you are not hiding from your situation, but facing up to it head on, which is the very epitome of bravery


you didn't really do it to yourself though. for many of us on this site, that line could be true. perhaps i have the wrong terminology, but yours was from a form of medical psychosis. the medicine they gave you brought this on. that makes it even more tragic. obviously there was a problem to begin with in the form of insomnia, which would be harrowing enough, but from what you have told us, the medication did it all . . . as well as medical staff not listening or just being incompetent

either way, a person could expect at the very least, their parents to care about them, and while i do not know anything about your personal life, as far as your husband goes, one line comes to me "for better or for worse". it would be tough on all of them, but love should shine through in the darkest hours

This is the most wholesome reply. I cried while reading it. Thank you for your kind words I've never felt more seen ❤

Heartbreaking. Are you able to ambulate on your own?

Yes I am mobile thank fully, with aid.

 

[singingcrow]

your post has left me speechless.

i'm sorry you're carrying so much pain

i noticed on another thread that you're from australia too. i'd be happy to chat if you ever feel like it.

thank you for sharing everything even when it's so raw. i hope you can find people who treat you with the care and understanding you deserve, even if it's just people from this forum.

fuck your husband and the friends who left you btw. you didn't deserve that, and I hope you always remember that

 

[fightclub17]

your post has left me speechless.

i'm sorry you're carrying so much pain

i noticed on another thread that you're from australia too. i'id be happy to chat if you ever feel like it.

thank you for sharing everything even when it's so raw. i hope you can find people who treat you with the care and understanding you deserve, even if it's just people from this forum.

fuck your husband and the friends who left you btw. you didn't deserve that, and I hope you always remember that

Hey fellow aussie sadly but also fortunately I think it's only people on this forum who can show real empathy.

 

[TorturedPoet]

How likely is it that you will lose your leg? It's confusing to me because you jumped but unless you got an infection I don't know why they would amputate your leg, I know people who's legs don't work but they keep them.