SadCryingBunny
Experienced
- Apr 10, 2025
- 290
I am thinking of jumping off my home roof from a height of 2m and landing on my side paralysing myself or severely breaking my hip and legs. I've done it from a height of 0.5m from my bed when I was very depressed from my hair loss years ago and landed on my side waist and it was very painful and would do it again if I must. That will teach them a fucking lesson to leave me the fuck alone. They have seen my self harm scars and hair loss and they're still bugging me for more work despite my doctor clearly stating I am not mentally fit for more than 8 - 10 hours. I have been placed on the disability job seeker payment of $1600 and drive Uber Eats for 10 hours a week sometimes a bit less or more. Driving is exhausting enough, it's not as comfortable as sitting at a desk in an office. I can't drive during severe rain or hot weather when it's 35 - 40C in the summer. It's IMPOSSIBLE to do. Hourly rate is $25AUD give or take - car expenses. If they aren't grateful for this, when I am paralysed I will sell the car as it costs me $200 a month and be unemployed living with my parents permanently because I will be fucked beyond repair. They clearly secretly want me to kill myself as a recent psychologist made no attempt to deter me from suicide when I mentioned my method but I've decided since they want me to kill myself, I will not give them what they desire and would rather live disabled and then kill myself when I am 80 via nitrogen and exit bag.
