I hate crisis plans

[woofwag]

Idk if anyone else is like me, but when I'm in a crisis and about to attempt to CBT or hurt myself, I don't want anything to do with a crisis plan. They genuinely do nothing for me because why would I care about feeling better in those moments? If I want to die, I'm not going to go for a walk or call a friend or whatever the fuck is recommended to me. I'm going to either hurt myself or try to die. I respect that they can be helpful for others, but personally I don't really get how? Like when I am in a crisis, I am absolutely set on my intentions. There are very few things that will drag me out of a crisis, and none of them have anything to do with me trying to feel better, because why would I care to do that when I can just CBT or hurt myself? Something like not having a reliable method, being too physically disabled to move, being in an area where I don't have access to any of my sh tools, or just pure laziness, those are things that will stop me. But I'm not going to try anything to feel better, because in those moments, I don't want to! So it pisses me off when I get the same tired advice to "call a hotline" or "snap a rubber band on your wrist" or some bs, like no, if I'm in a crisis I'm going to be hurting myself in some way. Is anyone else like this?

 

[Wrath]

I don't have any plans for stuff like this when it happens. I just sit down and freak out silently, hoping I forget about it the next day. I usually try to logically exhaust all options. I have weird stuff going on in my head where I worry about stuff just as likely as a plane falling on my house and killing me. It's stupid, but it makes my chest tense up and it feels real to me. I just try to tell myself all the reasons why it could happen and all the reasons why it wouldn't and that usually works, but takes me hours. I don't really know if this fits into the topic, but it felt relevant. Stuff that involves coping mechanisms that avoids the core problem doesn't really help when it's a constant worry or problem imo. I hope this relates a bit.