i don't even want death i just want feel okay

[blush]

i hate suffering all the time and i just want it to be better. i don't wanna be friendless and alone in the darkness anymore. i want better days to be up ahead. it doesn't feel possible. it feels like life will be joyless forever. cruel reality. death is ice cold but it's also release. it's letting destruction win but it's also impartial.

i wish i didn't want to die

 

[Nolongerlive]

Well, if you decided that you dont want to die and want to live a better happier life , you have to reorganise your thoughts , focus on your well being and do stuffs that you enjoyed or make you happy.

Maybe also can consult a pyschiatrist, see what kind of treatment they can offer.

One small step at a time. The mental hurdle is huge, you will allways come back to the beginning stage or ctb

Have to try or else you wont know you can.

 

[tomame]

i don't want to die either .. i just see no other alternative. i'm so weak and emotional .. nevermind my bpd. life is just so painful

especially after losing my partner and now single .. i can't cope being alone. yet .. it seems to be my punishment for some reason.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I feel the same way. I really don't wanna die I just want things to be better for me. But unfortunately that will never be possible since I have an incurable personality disorder that's excruciating to live with. You can do as you wish but I really don't think you should give up just yet. As hard to believe as it may sound it absolutely is possible for you to make real friends and feel positive emotions. It's just not something that will come into your life so easily. I really hope your situation improves.

 

[Chocomel]

Have to try or else you wont know you can.

Yes, I think it is true that you have to at least try it. If you wish to get better, at least try it first. Since you are in rock bottom, it can only go up. And if you failed, you didn't lose anything because rock bottom is where you start. I am also currently trying to be better, I do the weekly challenge thread on recovery section, I also read some of the post there. But sometimes it just doesn't work, and I feel like giving up. So I give up and coming back here to the suicide section. Knowing that I have tried to be better, and I will try to be better again if I wish so.

 

[tannhausers]

I feel and think exactly the same way; it actually shocks me a little just how many people here share these exact same thoughts

 

[morina]

Same, I want to die but I don't want to want to die... Sadly I don't know how.

 

[Nolongerlive]

I am in suicidal mode recently. back and forward. I understand . I just keep trying.

Nothing wrong have to accept it as part of my life.