how do you feel right now? don’t even think about it, just type.

[TheMadmanJL]

I'm fucking drunker than shit! I'm thinking about jumping in front of a damn truck or bus to ctb! Fuck misery

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

rage

 

[merlinscries]

just pure grief and sadness.

 

[deleted user 137373]

I feel so humiliated, but not surprised

humiliation after humiliation, nothing but humiliation

endless humiliation

 

[Vxlvio]

Empty, and yet at the same time my head is filled with thoughts I can't shake. Recently started medication in some attempt to "make things better," when in reality, deep down, I don't want to fix it. I just want the world around me to stop. I feel like I'm trying therapy and medication because maybe it'll make things feel easier until the day I can finally let go. I have things I owe to people I love before I can CTB. After that, I don't really care for what happens. It feels like my body is making moves to survive while my mind is already certain of how I want things to go, and nothing has been truly making it better. I'm frustrated with every emotion I can't seem to keep contained and I'm tired of being attached to a life I never really asked for. I don't want to hurt the people I love but I've always lived my life for others, and I feel like it's prime time I stop doing that.

Some may call it selfish like we always hear. Honestly, to an extent, it feels like self care. The last act of telling myself "I hear you" and receiving peace for that

 

[ObsidianWatcher]

My left temple throbs dully. The back of my neck is tight. My brain is overcast with smoky haze, the drifting aftermath of flashing fireworks. Existence is too loud. Too bright. Too coarse. I am daydreaming of the quiet darkness which I hope to be on the other side.

 

[darksouls]

I regret having sacrificed myself for this human scum that exploited me

 

[Terrible_Life]

I feel trapped in a never ending nightmare

 

[themindian]

Sick of being numb. Like my life ended a few years ago and the credits have just been rolling and rolling and rolling for all these years and I am just sick of feeling like a walking taking being that is just full of absolutely NOTHING. No joy, not much anger, no consolation, no closure, NOTHING.

 

[girafeli]

numb

 

[maylurker]

drained

 

[Unlucky777]

I wish I could just stop myself from having thoughts. Just complete stop

Anyone else feel this way?

 

[ikigaimg]

I'm very sad

 

[Kazu Ha]

exhausted

 

[0Mercy]

I think I have no value as a person. I bring nothing to the table. I'm useless, that's it.
I hate my face, my body.

Nobody will ever truly love me, and I probably won't accomplish anything of what I truly desire.

I feel very alone.

 

[Kazu Ha]

I think I have no value as a person. I bring nothing to the table. I'm useless, that's it.
I hate my face, my body.

Nobody will ever truly love me, and I probably won't accomplish anything of what I truly desire.

I feel very alone.

I feel that so much...

 

[Unlucky777]

JFKs granddaughter died at age 35 of terminal cancer. I've smoked cigarettes for 20 plus years how come I don't have that shit? If I did I would not seek treatment and painful as it may be, it would feel great because I would not have to feel guilty about CTB

 

[KenDuh]

I feel alone, lost, as if all my efforts were useless. I am exhausted, nothing brings me satisfaction, nothing feels enough, but everything seems so terrible and scares me so much, I cannot live peacefully because of irrational fears, because of an anxiety that never leaves me. I don't even want to recover, but I have to because this feeling is horrible, and I don't want to be like this, but I can't, I can't be okay.

 

[maylurker]

stressed because of the parents visit

 

[darksouls]

this has nothing to do with life, New Years Eve and Christmas have once again confirmed to me how sad my existence is

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I am tormented by the thought of good people. People who live good lives. Creative people, athletes, even just the respectable middle class people I know. Live can be lived so much better than I lived it. I betrayed myself, corrupted myself, and became nothing. A useless, bitter, cowardly child-man approaching middle age. This can't be real! I would never do anything that led to this! But I did.

 

[thefarter]

i am heartbroken i think. like my heart feels very heavy in my chest, and i can't breathe very well. it sort of aches, too. i honestly just keep thinking about being dead and buried finally. and then everything will finally be okay. for me & for everyone else. and noboby will be on my case. i can just .. be dead. i just wannna be forgottennnnnn sooooo baaaaaaaaaaaaaadddddddddddd

 

[Exhausted546]

Out of options and realizing I'm really going to do it

 

[inkmage333]

It hurts. It hurts so much. Please let me die.

 

[Lostforgood]

i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.

I feel depleted. I feel overwhelmingly sad. I feel like I should have died a while ago, and existing like this is my hell.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Constant overwhelming pain. I'm not even ruminating that much, it's more immediate and physical. I have to end it but I'm so afraid of hanging.

 

[U. A.]

Like OP clearly didn't search to find out there was already an old and well-established thread for this very purpose which annoys me because active duplicate threads annoy me.

 

[darksouls]

stressed and tense

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Been better...

 

[myucore]

i feel like my brain shutting down from abusing meds