how do you feel right now? don’t even think about it, just type.

[darksouls]

sasu is the only place where I feel safe,
I have nowhere else,
I am afraid of losing even that

 

[Webcore]

Cold scared alone

 

[americanoomad]

Defeated that I'm back at this point again. I feel like I'm working so hard to coexist with my mental illness and find a healthy balance—I take my meds, I meditate, I journal, I socialize, I explore hobbies—and everything was okay for a few months. I thought I finally got the hang of things. Today, that insidious numbing feeling crept in again, and now I'm thrown back into the bottomless pit of wanting to hurt myself but feeling obligated not to hurt the feelings of those who love me. It's quite frightening how one moment I was feeling at peace and enjoying my day (literally musing to myself how nothing could go wrong), and within an hour I felt without purpose and completely numb. I know eventually I'll crawl out of this hole, and things will look up again, but I have no idea how long it'll take until that happens. I hate that no matter how hard I try to be "stable," my mental illness ultimately still takes over and messes everything up at any given moment.

 

[jojobanana]

tired and nothing at all

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Depressed and tired. I often question why I was brought into this cruel world.

 

[nitrogenous]

I feel hopeless and overwhelmed. People kept on telling me that everything will get better, but it hasn't been any better so far. It keeps on getting worse and worse. People say they care, but they never shown any act of care and when it comes the time where I can't afford my living expenses anymore, I'm truly alone. When I express my suicidality with immediate plan and means, not a single person gave a shit, not even my medical professionals. So, I guess, there's no hope anymore.

 

[darksouls]

as I lay dying,
all the burdens fell away from me,
I felt peace,
now all the burdens are back,
and they are unbearable,
why did I have to survive sepsis?

 

[IMAFRAIDDAVE]

so fucking frustrated. i should have been dead so long ago but i do not have the resources to get the materials needed for a guaranteed death. i am too afraid to attempt and fail. i just wish i could have some confidence and put all mt effort into succeeding