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abel777

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Dec 4, 2025
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only two things make me feel peaceful. one is death and the other is solitary confinement. if I could be locked up in one room for the rest of my life and only provided with food, water and toilet, I swear that I'd prefer that to my life. isolation is the only form of life that would be peaceful to me. it is the only alternative to death.

however unfortunately I can't think of anything that would guarantee me a solitary confinement. it's too much of a luxury to ask for. death is much easier to achieve it seems.
 
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Mar 15, 2025
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I've had similar thoughts. I would volunteer for a secret government mission where, if I got caught the punishment would be solitary confinement as a form of torture to try to break me. I'd be like James Bond. But seriously, yes, it would be wonderful, almost as good as death.
 
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Dec 24, 2025
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I believe this varies profoundly from person to person. In my own case, at 29, I find myself already burdened by a deep tedium towards life,a life I perceive as an endless series of repetitions with new packaging. The perspective you describe wouldn't work for me.

'One must retain some remaining desire to avoid being unhappy from pure happiness. The body wants to breathe, and the spirit must aspire
- Baltasar Gracián
 
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