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WallTermite

WallTermite

Member
Aug 16, 2025
96
Country.
 
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amor.dor

amor.dor

Redenção
Dec 24, 2025
310
In my case, it would only bring me better comfort at the moment of death, but CTB would still be my choice. Because what drives me to go forward with this is a logical and practically philosophical conclusion.

Life only changes certain aspects, but suffering and death are always guaranteed to happen.

A house has a floor and walls; its essence is the same here or in China. What changes is whether they are good walls or floors, but the basal condition of existence does not change. Yet we are biological beings evolved to adapt and survive—after all, I've seen people say they have a good life living in conditions that seemed more like slavery.
 
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WhatCouldHaveBeen32

(O__O)==>(X__X)
Oct 12, 2024
1,038
Nah, it wouldn't change much
 
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Hangman.

Hangman.

Experienced
May 22, 2025
208
Yes, but only at 308 Negra Arroyo Lane, Albuquerque, New Mexico 87104.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
564
I don't think so, I currently live in Finland "the happiest country" and still want to ctb.
 
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VoidButterfly

VoidButterfly

Flitterby
May 17, 2025
146
I think it would, if I could find a job and be stable there. I hate this country so much, and it feels like things are only going to get much worse, being able to leave it would make a big difference.
 
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Spite

Spite

Nil Desperandum.
Aug 20, 2025
232
Quite possibly, yes. But it entirely depends on which country. I have long dreamed of wanting to live somewhere like Canada, or northern Europe - somewhere I can experience snow and colder weather overall. I can't guarantee is this would "fix" my depression (it probably wouldn't), but I like to imagine I might be at least a little bit happier living somewhere I want to live.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,012
No matter what nothing would ever make me want to be tortured for decades longer in this horrific, evil world just to face the agony of old age with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I'd just never wish for this dreadful, torturous and futile existence rather I find it so unbearable to exist, every second is torture to be conscious and I see existence as the most terrible mistake.

Existence is a mistake that causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering torturing existing beings all for the sake of it and I'll just always see existence itself as the true problem, the fact that humans choose to impose this existence onto others causing all this dreadful unnecessary suffering as a result is so horrible to me, the existence of life is the most terrible, devastating tragedy to me and I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long, all I want is the peace of non-existence, I'll always see it as an abomination to be burdened with this existence.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,014
YES FUCK THE UNITED STATES
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
237
Maybe it would have change something if I had been born in more democratic country, since being in kind of shithole is one of the reason of my depression, but I don't think it would have a significant impact.

It actually depends. If I somehow have the opportunity to move out from my country, it can make a big difference. But anyway, it probably won't fix my mental issues.
 
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LittleSunshine

LittleSunshine

F♡ck Around And F♤nd Out
Jul 20, 2025
542
If I could find a place cut off from society, somewhere surrounded by nature, that would significantly increase my chances.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Mage
Nov 12, 2025
501
No. I used to think about moving to another country, but that would change nothing for me now.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Warlock
Mar 16, 2025
779
Nope, this world is the problem, an everywhere you go you will run into the same shit.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Specialist
Dec 24, 2025
309
the location isn't the problem, my family is. put me anywhere without them and i might possibly not want to ctb since all i want is to be free of them. i really hate where i live since i was like 12 though. i've always wanted to move anywhere else but i don't necessarily mean the country. i like living in the US.
 
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Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
215
Probably not, but visiting Singapore so I can taunt my ex and watch her have an existential crisis over whether to hook up with me or not would be REALLY funny.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Arcanist
Jun 4, 2023
432
Possibly, if it weren't run by insane politicians.
 
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ScaredCutter

ScaredCutter

put a red heart if u love espoir city
Oct 16, 2025
173
maybe, if theres affordable housing
 
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nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
82
As someone who has actually moved to another country (another continent in fact), nope. Compared to where I was previously, where I'm now have a much better mental health system, although in saying that they are still super horrible. Nothing has changed, my thoughts and feelings are the same, it's just much harder to act on my thoughts due to fear of interference from local authorities. I wish my problems would just disappear like that, but unfortunately it doesn't work that way.
 
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struggles_inc

struggles_inc

life is a highway and i wanna wreck my car
Jun 24, 2023
469
Moved from Russia to a normal country. It wasn't the reason I got better, but Russia would probably be the reason I got worse if I stayed.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

I revoke my subscription from life.
Nov 1, 2025
193
It's too expensive everywhere, so no.
 
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MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
43
YES FUCK THE UNITED STATES
You and me both. Yes, fuck America. And fuck their healthcare especially. I am motherfucking 900 something dollars in debt all because I had an ambulance called on me during an attempt to ctb almost 2 years ago.

I miss Canada. Maybe, just MAYBE I would feel better there. Maybe, with the kind of healthcare they have, I could get better help there. I mean it's got its own problems too, but I felt happier there than I feel in the United Shits.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,632
Lived in two countries since leaving my home country. Still suicidal, but still here. If I'd stayed, I wouldn't be alive now, but it's not because of the country. Another factor since leaving was unemployment. If I hadn't found a job when I did, the last $100 would've gone for SN, but instead I used my first salary for the purchase. I live in a better country now, but my world is still dark and I'm very much empty inside.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Member
Jan 11, 2026
91
A new citizenship (Canada, Sweden, Switzerland, maybe the USA but I am not sure, maybe even Indian will go) + the ability to gain a useful network to start businesses. AI will help do any kind of work if you use it smartly - not just copy pas. I do not need to live in those countries but not in Russia. No way. I better CTB. I will even hang myself if I were to be forced.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
508
You and me both. Yes, fuck America. And fuck their healthcare especially. I am motherfucking 900 something dollars in debt all because I had an ambulance called on me during an attempt to ctb almost 2 years ago.

I miss Canada. Maybe, just MAYBE I would feel better there. Maybe, with the kind of healthcare they have, I could get better help there. I mean it's got its own problems too, but I felt happier there than I feel in the United Shits.
Now I understand why you guys can't afford to fail an attempt.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Member
Jan 11, 2026
91
Moved from Russia to a normal country. It wasn't the reason I got better, but Russia would probably be the reason I got worse if I stayed.
I also moved. I have no Russian friends lol. I know there are good one but I don't want it. I had enough.
 
struggles_inc

struggles_inc

life is a highway and i wanna wreck my car
Jun 24, 2023
469
I also moved. I have no Russian friends lol. I know there are good one but I don't want it. I had enough.

I ended up befriending more Ukrainian people than Russian actually. Idk why.
 
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HawkTalon

HawkTalon

Member
Jan 15, 2026
19
I've lived in several countries over the years, and it had made no difference. Now living in another timeline, where certain regrettable decisions weren't made, that's a whole other thing.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Member
Jan 11, 2026
91
I ended up befriending more Ukrainian people than Russian actually. Idk why.
It is normal. No one wants to be around them. Ukrainians are nicer in general. But I prefer to be alone more now. It is not good though.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,413
No. I am done living no matter where I am.
 
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