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lostlove

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Aug 20, 2024
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i have decided to ctb in august and n is the only method i am really comfortable with.

i am willing to travel anywhere to obtain it. i've been to many countries in southeast asia where you can basically buy whatever prescription drugs you want otc but n is not usually prescribed to humans so idt they would have it.

is there any hope for this plan?
 
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iWantToStopExisting

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Apr 28, 2026
19
Hello. Can you give me an advice please. I need to buy a p...l (boom-boom!!), somewhere in an undeveloped country near sea (Cambodia maybe). I want to disappear (Boat, weight jacket, p...l). Here in Greece it's illegal, and if they gonna catch you, you screw. Any ideas how can i succeed. I have an access to darknet.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,081
No one sells pentabarbitol anymore. You used to be able to get some from vet clinics in South America but I think they are getting wise to that now.
 
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iLikeFrogs

iLikeFrogs

Most likely dissociating
May 5, 2023
172
you're likely to get scammed. you may try in south america but they're getting smarter now too *sigh*
 
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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

Student
Apr 17, 2023
118
You could definitely get very lucky but chances are you wont unfortunately. N isnt realistic anymore unfortunately
 
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yes7777777

Member
Apr 30, 2026
46
IIRC there was some threads who got it as recently as 2025 on P
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Paragon
Nov 12, 2025
922
I have a feeling that most everyone on this site would say the exact same thing (that N is the only method they're really comfortable with) if it was one of our options. Since it isn't, we settle for whatever method we can feel as comfortable with as possible. If you can't find your N but still need to CTB, you'll have to do the same.

That being said, since you're willing & able to travel anywhere, maybe. Maybe it's not impossible to obtain. I've seen threads by people planning trips to South America to search for it, I'm not sure if the plan is realistic or not. Best of luck to you either way.
 

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