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estadiare

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Aug 31, 2022
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Considering that I only live once I'm worried that suicide might be a waste.

But on the other hand I won't care after I'm dead and I have nothing to look forward to in life in the first place. I don't know what to make of it
 
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ForeverSubhuman

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Nov 12, 2025
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Don't do it unless you're 100% certain, hopeless, and have given up. You can only do it once. Always feel free to vent I'm open to talk to.
 
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Bat12

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Mar 2, 2024
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Considering that I only live once I'm worried that suicide might be a waste.

But on the other hand I won't care after I'm dead and I have nothing to look forward to in life in the first place. I don't know what to make of it
I've never lived so free, more than the times I thought I was going to CTB that night. I'm sure some others can relate, the sense of freedom and joy in your mind is unobtainable elsewhere
 
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sanctionedusage

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Sep 17, 2025
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seconding FS

this is the kind of thought you 100% must resolve before ctb, if you have literally the smallest shred of hope for yourself, or doubt about ctb, don't do it

even if it's just a modicum of curiosity about what would happen if you didn't end it just yet.

theres probably no feeling more brutal than helpless, last minute regret before fading out
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Considering that I only live once I'm worried that suicide might be a waste.
Indeed, we live only once and we should live our lives to the fullest as best as possible.

What makes u consider suicide?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I agree with others. Thoughts like these suggest even a small interest in life- which seems sensible to pursue.

That's the thing though. I'd tend to argue only so much is down to luck. If there are things you want or are wondering about in life- I think we all need to ask ourselves- what are we doing to achieve them? I think when there's things we want- we need to take action to try to make them happen. Only then can we know whether it's worth it.
 
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Sep 21, 2025
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Considering that I only live once I'm worried that suicide might be a waste.

But on the other hand I won't care after I'm dead and I have nothing to look forward to in life in the first place. I don't know what to make of it
It's difficult to accept, I agree. The, you only live once, idea is certainly true and powerful.

But i messed it up. Badly. And then now i look around and see that life is mostly a struggle.

once or not, I don't see life as something positive anymore. So I'd rather and it. Horrifically, life is stubborn and won't just let you out.
 
InevitableDeath

InevitableDeath

Already Dead
Jan 4, 2026
293
If you're worried about that you shouldn't be here. Try the recovery section.
 
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ToANewWorld

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Apr 16, 2025
94
Yeah is a big decision. Depends on your situation. If you have it in you to live and can find some *hope* for the future, I'd keep living. The problem is when you can't find hope.
 

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