Why are you suicidal?

[StillLife]

Not really interested in raising a family, social status, and getting sickly old.
I already feel like a specter, so when the last of the people that genuinely care about me are gone, um, what's next if anything?

Purpose would take me far but I'm having doubts I'll find something worthwhile in time...

 

[liza]

A group of people have been doing very horrid things to me secretively and I'm dreaming every night non stop. I feel like the jab from the vaccine is what caused the non stop dreaming. Mayb I'm not lovable

 

[sohopelessandempty]

The negatives outweigh the positives. With everything.

I'm not good enough at anything no matter how hard I try.

The text under your profile is exactly how I feel.

 

[sick&tired]

Chronic illness. I want to stay so badly, but it seems my body really doesn't want me to </3 every single day is a battle ..

 

[Lost Impact]

An incurable disease like me shouldn't have existed in the first place. I don't sleep. I don't live. I don't do anything. I sit here and rot. The vessel and mind have given up on me or was never there for me to begin with.

 

[l1ablemistakes]

No matter how hard I try the depression won't go away. I've worked so hard to have amazing friends, a beautiful relationship, a perfect job that pays well, and it's still there. It's been there since I was a young teen. I've been in therapy for 6 years and tried so many medications and I've only gotten worse. I think this is just how my brain is and I can't take it.

 

[sick&tired]

I will keep it short and to the point why I'm suicidal:

Chronic illnesses that worsen with age (I'm 38 and already have a body of a 70 year old person)
Due to my Asperger's I never had a friend nor a love life
I'm avoided by all like I have the plague, even though I'm a good person (I have been told by many that I'm a good person)

39 and I struggle with chronic illness too. It's devastating sorry you're dealing with it

 

[Macedonian1987]

39 and I struggle with chronic illness too. It's devastating sorry you're dealing with it

I'm sorry for your pain too. Living with chronic illnesses isn't life... it's torture. On top of it all I have nobody to comfort me when the pain gets too bad. My mother and father are very cold parents. Some people shouldn't have children at all.

 

[NameOfAction]

Agonizing mental anguish. I want to claw myself to shreds. There isn't a hard reason for this. I self-isolate. I have nowhere to go and there's boundless energy that has nothing to focus on, so it tears me from within. I can't tell what came first, the isolation or the pain and it's fucking horrible. I don't self harm anymore only because I consider it childish. If I could I would paint the room with blood and dance in it. I wonder if by body does it to my brain anyway, it would explain the anguish.

 

[Unicr0n]

Right now? My dog bit my face because he didn't like something I did and I'm considering behavioral euthanasia for him and then myself. I can't envision a world without him. Even though he came close to blinding me, taking out of this world that little bundle of bouncy joy I couldn't live with the thoguht that I'd killed him. Especially when I've done so much worse to people mentally. It's not fair to him

In general though, just seeing how much harm I've done to the world compared to how much good. And how even though I've tried over, and over, and over to be good, I end up doing something that harms someone's feelings/mentally and I'm realizing it's never going to end until I do. There are monsters in the world, people that deceive. I was raised to be a deceptive monster, and no matter how hard I try to tame that tiger, it always ends up mauling its master. Monsters don't belong in this world.