I’m giving life one last try

[m3nhera]

I'm so deadass and ik I sound like that one audio that's like "One last try. I'm giving life ONE last try" but bc I've been so torn between the main two choices, I've decided to really give it my all, to try make life better.

If things aren't better by the time summer is over, I'll kill myself before college starts. I always think about that but the rule is that I really have to TRY like actually try before quitting. I "try" but I don't TRY ykwim?

Anyways I'll probably need help with planning bc I need to make sure I have a way out if things don't get better.

This will sound ridiculous but I am going to try and manifest chill parents, I could say a lot about that topic but just wanna make this clear: I don't think that anyone in a bad situation is at fault and that if they just tried harder it would go away, that's not how that works, this is just for myself to try, because I tried everything else and I have nothing to lose. Sometimes it actually works apparently so I'll have to see and find out. But I really gotta commit instead of falling back into the same hopeless cycle.

I always quit with everything I do but for the next three months I will truly give it my all. Idk why I'm writing this, idk if anyone cares, this is just the only site I could really talk about this. Maybe I could start like a journal or something so ppl can see the progress each day??? Like maybe rating how my parents were out of 10 everyday. Idk. If anyone cares let me know LMAO

Bye guys

 

[Yuri440]

Hell even if the world is against you, you can still try. What matters is you want to and you're going to give it your all man. I think the main thing is that you care enough to try. You got this tho!

It's worth at least a try imo <3

 

[ilovenewyork]

Good for you

 

[Hollowman]

Good luck

 

[Hystearical]

If things aren't better by the time summer is over,

But that's when college starts.

 

[glass-petal]

i admire your conviction and i truly hope it all goes well for you. we're all rooting for you~!

 

[charlavail]

is your college away from home? and away from your parents?

 

[Sparkly rainbow]

I would like to see your daily improvements to life and a mindset change (even if it is only temporary.

 

[m3nhera]

But that's when college starts.

Yeah, I explained in another post that suicide during college isn't ideal and would be a worse time than either doing it before or not doing it at all.

is your college away from home? and away from your parents?

No. And I can't afford to get away from them regardless, that's the only reason I'm staying home.

i admire your conviction and i truly hope it all goes well for you. we're all rooting for you~!

Thank you!!! I somewhat resonate with your title lol

I would like to see your daily improvements to life and a mindset change (even if it is only temporary.

Glad to hear this!

Good luck

Thanks!

Good for you

Thanks

Hell even if the world is against you, you can still try. What matters is you want to and you're going to give it your all man. I think the main thing is that you care enough to try. You got this tho!

It's worth at least a try imo <3

Yeah you're right, if I try and it doesn't work out there's always suicide, but how will I know unless I try?

 

[Yuri440]

Yeah you're right, if I try and it doesn't work out there's always suicide, but how will I know unless I try?

Exactly! It might be that it works out really well, or hell it may just be a little bit, but honestly in my eyes for me at least, if I'm already at the point I'm wanting to be dead, it can't really get worse than that ya know?

Good luck <3 you've always got us to talk to if you need it!

 

[Matchaaa]

I really hope things goes well for you soon, and I wish you all the best.
good luck, just give it a shot

 

[m3nhera]

Exactly! It might be that it works out really well, or hell it may just be a little bit, but honestly in my eyes for me at least, if I'm already at the point I'm wanting to be dead, it can't really get worse than that ya know?

Good luck <3 you've always got us to talk to if you need it!

Thanks guys ur literally nicer than my entire family

I really hope things goes well for you soon, and I wish you all the best.
good luck, just give it a shot

Thanks, I already want to quit again LMAO

 

[Yuri440]

I already want to quit again LMAO

Nu uh you gotta try now you said you would! Hahaha nah honestly as long as you're trying that's all that matters, and I feel that comment about your family. Mine are hellish too, it's a fun time

 

[Aflame5926]

maybe live life like IF you are going to CTB. because once you CTB who cares about afterwards
GO BIG, also what Yuri440 said.

dont go back so soon. you can always come back