Venting What else am I supposed to do?

[lonergirl_26]

I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
I've prayed to every god and deity. Done all the spells and manifestations. I've tried to ask for help. Briefly tried meds. Supposed to be with mental health services but haven't heard from them since January even though I'm supposed to be a priority. There is no help. There is no getting better.
I'm full of sadness. My anxiety is so bad that I can't leave the house again. I can feel it bubbling inside of me. One little thing and the floodgates will be opened. Who knows how that will manifest its self. I hope that it will give me the push to finally ctb.
I just feel so empty. I just feel so sad.

 

[NothingEverWorksOut]

I'm so sorry to hear you aren't receiving any help. Could you try calling them again? I also had an appointment scheduled on March this year which was cancelled and switched to May which also was cancelled.. Makes me feel they don't care about my struggles. Why did you try meds only briefly? Weren't they suitable for you? I tried them too but got akathisia from sertraline ssri so can't use them :( I used to have agoraphobia too and didn't leave the house but it got better by itself without meds or help so there is hope for you too. I hope you will feel better