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lovelulu

lovelulu

even the iron still fears the rot.
Jan 3, 2026
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when I finally kill myself soon, I hope the ones who have done me wrong fucking feel terrible. Im in another fight with my fp again. This time it was my fault—but thats not the point. She said she dosent want to talk to right now so I respect her wishes but obviously i feel like shit. I have no right to be mad, but I am. When I kill myself, I hope she'll feel guilty. I hope shes regrets it. I fucking hate myself so much i can't do anything right i cant even have a proper relationship. fuck everyone and myself.
 
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Charmander07

Charmander07

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Feb 6, 2026
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when I finally kill myself soon, I hope the ones who have done me wrong fucking feel terrible. Im in another fight with my fp again. This time it was my fault—but thats not the point. She said she dosent want to talk to right now so I respect her wishes but obviously i feel like shit. I have no right to be mad, but I am. When I kill myself, I hope she'll feel guilty. I hope shes regrets it. I fucking hate myself so much i can't do anything right i cant even have a proper relationship. fuck everyone and myself.
I used to think exactly like this and tbh I still do a bit, don't blame yourself tho we all make mistakes. It sounds like u regret what u have done, but im assuming its also been her in the past. I hope you can find peace, no matter what you end up doing, feel free to DM me I'm available to chat if you need it
 
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hatemyself100000

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Oct 17, 2025
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when I finally kill myself soon, I hope the ones who have done me wrong fucking feel terrible. Im in another fight with my fp again. This time it was my fault—but thats not the point. She said she dosent want to talk to right now so I respect her wishes but obviously i feel like shit. I have no right to be mad, but I am. When I kill myself, I hope she'll feel guilty. I hope shes regrets it. I fucking hate myself so much i can't do anything right i cant even have a proper relationship. fuck everyone and myself.
Im sorry youre feeling this way. Is it a toxic relationship?

I feel the opposite. I want everyone to know im at peace and no longer in pain.
 

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