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jazzcat621

jazzcat621

My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
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Say your in your final moments, your about to swallow your SN and you get a text from someone and it says something that would instantly make you stop, what would it say?

For me it would be a text from a close friend of mine, Gabbie, and it would say "Hey gorlll I heard you weren't doing good lately sorry I ghosted you i didn't think I really meant that much to you, we can still be friends"
 
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chaewon

chaewon

Member
Jan 8, 2026
44
Hopefully Gabbie does contact u and u end up being good friends again :)
 
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Cyc

Cyc

It's my fight.
Jan 22, 2026
110
If one of my closest friends desperately needed help with something (e.g emotional support) and had nobody else to turn to then I'd stop and help them...but then I'd just ctb later

I've been wanting to die for 7 years, I can delay it if needed but I'm not gonna back out completely for one person
 
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sanctionedusage

sanctioned sausage
Sep 17, 2025
475
'lavender apples' its a code i came up with in case someone ever gets trapped in a time loop. if someones in a time loop, id tell them to say that phrase and nothing else to me the next time it loops and ill immediately be on board to help them get out of it in the next loop. obviously no one knows the phrase, so if someone said it to me, it couldve only been bc of a time loop.
 
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Shiitake

Shiitake

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Nov 29, 2025
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'lavender apples' its a code i came up with in case someone ever gets trapped in a time loop. if someones in a time loop, id tell them to say that phrase and nothing else to me the next time it loops and ill immediately be on board to help them get out of it in the next loop. obviously no one knows the phrase, so if someone said it to me, it couldve only been bc of a time loop.
Lavender apples bro
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,408
Someone saying they are on the way home. I do not want to risk getting caught. Other than that, nothing.
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake!
Apr 21, 2025
1,038
your about to swallow your SN and you get a text from someone and it says something that would instantly make you stop, what would it say?
my friend saying he's visiting town just for me and that he's bought me mcdonald's. i would probably start crying on the spot because i've missed him a lot. it's been hard not being able to hang out with him. i hope you get to be friends with gabbie again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,004
No, I just wouldn't, I simply just don't want to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence rather all I want is true permanent peace, I just wish to be permanently unconscious free from all torture, pain and suffering.

In this existence so dreadful only non-existence could ever be positive for me, I'll always see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating tragedy and if I had SN I'd be long gone as it truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence. All I hope and wish for is to erase this existence, non-existence is just all I could ever hope for, I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's just so horrific to me how humans impose this existence at all causing all this terrible harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just for them to face the torture and agony of old age.
 
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dxm

dxm

hopeless bleh
Jan 23, 2026
6
Say your in your final moments, your about to swallow your SN and you get a text from someone and it says something that would instantly make you stop, what would it say?

For me it would be a text from a close friend of mine, Gabbie, and it would say "Hey gorlll I heard you weren't doing good lately sorry I ghosted you i didn't think I really meant that much to you, we can still be friends"
if a close friend of mine, that ended our friendship yesterday, texted me again, forgave me and needed my support.

the message could be anything, but i doubt it'll completely stop my attempt.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Specialist
Dec 24, 2025
309
loml saying they miss me and apologizing. may we all get our texts just to see what happens…
 
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thefarter

thefarter

i don’t smoke
Dec 10, 2025
99
literally ANYBODY saying 'hey i saw all your doxxed stuff u will be okay do u want to talk about it' :3

and that..my friends.. is impossible!

so 🥀 the end is nigh..
 
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Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,600
There is one person... but I will never hear from her. It's not going to happen. But she could give me reason to live.
 
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deadngoresurgery

deadngoresurgery

Jezebel
Jan 10, 2026
39
Hopefully Gabbie does contact u and u end up being good friends again :)
unrelated but i love your amanda young icon :)
Say your in your final moments, your about to swallow your SN and you get a text from someone and it says something that would instantly make you stop, what would it say?

For me it would be a text from a close friend of mine, Gabbie, and it would say "Hey gorlll I heard you weren't doing good lately sorry I ghosted you i didn't think I really meant that much to you, we can still be friends"
for me, itd be a text from someone i love. "hey, i just wanted to check up on you and see if you were alright? do you wanna meet up so you can talk to me about it?"

it was going fine yesterday. i hung out with andres yesterday. he would usually text me a lot back then when things were simpler, but now he barely texts me and its throughout the day. short little messages to see how im doing or just messing around. but today, he hasnt texted at all. few days ago, he said he loved me, but idk anymore. i saw him at the dining hall on my college campus. idk if he saw me, but I thought he would text me. nope. not a single message. he didnt even say bye to me last night when i said bye. its an extremely complicated situation
 
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Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
211
Any text from my ex would probably make me become euphoric, hyperventilate and vomit from happiness instead of SN.
Source: I had this happen to me once, in a very vividly convincing dream. Woke up super nauseous from sensory overwhelm.
Discovering the reality was very disappointing.

Then again, I don't know if I'm that attached to her anymore... It's been a while since I've had to cope with those feelings. I probably am, but it's all buried and the circuitry's worn out now.
 
BleedingBeast

BleedingBeast

Leaving a trail of red.
Jan 15, 2026
2
Former best friend of 15 years actually apologizing for breaking her promises...
But since that was back in November and nothing, with any luck I'll be gone by February.
 

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