what makes life worth living for you

[cantthinkofusername]

i dont have what it takes to kill myself yet but i dont wanna be alive. life just feels so arbitrary and meaningless. i want to be whole but i never will be. i feel like a shade pretending to be a person. i will never be real. what makes life worth living

 

[enjoytheride]

I am sorry you are going through this and hope that better days are coming for you very soon.

Regarding your question, one thing that helps me keep going is a sense of wonder about the Universe. I am reminded there is existence, or there are existences, above or greater than what I am experiencing. They remind me that human evil is not boundless and omnipresent. It reminds me of how relative time and our experiences can be.

It's almost like the feeling you get when you watch this video and listen to the music:

(mind the possible jump scare of the astronaut's helmet suddenly appearing at 4:38)


The running on the rings of Saturn part is just sublime and the music is fitting.

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If you have the time and will, please also check this e-book: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf

 

[RoseGirl]

sex
ehhh life is meaningless as hell but u might as well have fun while u live

 

[Signal]

Nothing really. I don't want to live, but i don't want to die either, so i just continue to live thanks to inertia and because I'm too much of a coward, still, sometimes there are small moments in time when i think that maybe it isn't so bad if i just continue to live for now, like when I'm eating a tasty food, like ice cream, or cake; or when i watch a movie, or anime, or play a game that makes me cry and feel for its characters; or when its raining heavily and i feel the rain and the wind on my face; or when my pets start staring at me and i stare back at them. I don't know if I could say that those moments make life worth living, after all, in the end I'm still lonely, without friends and hating myself, but i think that, since I'm a coward and i'll continue on living, well, maybe those little moments make life a little less painful, and so, i try to appreciate them.

 

[sinnamonbun]

My pets help me keep going even when everything feels like it's too much.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

That's a good question - what makes life worth living?

This is probably very subjective.

But basically I would say we have to have to be healthy, have to have a good childhood that lays the base for our lives, we need a certain amount of luck (that already starts with genetics before we are even born). There are many, mostly subjective factors that make life worth living.

In my case, I've been basically lucky throughout my life, just not with the financial goals I had in my early 40s. That killed me and made life not worth living anymore. The result: I ended up on SS over 2 years ago.

Now, what makes life worth living for me:

I simply wanna live a life without pressures, be healthy, wanna be able to do whatever I want (yes, I want to put some effort into my goals! Nothing's for free!) but the borderline is there where even putting more effort into sth won't make life better long-term and others are profiting of me but not myself.

 

[playalistic]

i've never said anythjng like this to her in person because we're siblings and i'll always call her a dumb shithead (in a playful way) to her face but i love my sister so much. she's my best friend. without her idk if i'd still be around

i'm very grateful for my family in general. im having a hard time stomaching what my death will do to them when that time comes. I feel like an asshole and that makes ending things difficult too and more of a conundrum

 

[Satori Komeiji]

Games, and my limited set of interests when I have the motivation to pursue them. It's cope, sure but everything else in life has proven to be consistently painful so I might as well just enjoy what I have while I have it.

 

[mangorose]

I don't know how my family would manage and I still have a sliver of hope that there's people out there who get me.