Nothing really. I don't want to live, but i don't want to die either, so i just continue to live thanks to inertia and because I'm too much of a coward, still, sometimes there are small moments in time when i think that maybe it isn't so bad if i just continue to live for now, like when I'm eating a tasty food, like ice cream, or cake; or when i watch a movie, or anime, or play a game that makes me cry and feel for its characters; or when its raining heavily and i feel the rain and the wind on my face; or when my pets start staring at me and i stare back at them. I don't know if I could say that those moments make life worth living, after all, in the end I'm still lonely, without friends and hating myself, but i think that, since I'm a coward and i'll continue on living, well, maybe those little moments make life a little less painful, and so, i try to appreciate them.
