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hailspark

hailspark

hail
Jan 23, 2024
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I'd like to die in some sort of terrible accident so no one would think I ever wanted to die. (That doesn't know already).
 
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yourlocalprotist

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Jan 29, 2026
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I fantasize about a scenario quite similar to this. I want to die in the arms of someone who understands. Someone who would make sure it all goes smoothly. Of course, there are legal barriers to this actually happening.
I have this romanticized idea in my head of a lover consensually killing me, maybe via poison of some kind, and cradling my head in their lap as I die. They make me look beautiful and serene, and then take care of my bones for the rest of their life. However I know it wouldn't be so painless or pretty in real life, so it's not really a genuine desire. I think I just want to go knowing that I'm loved and will be cared for in death. To end by the hand of someone who loves you enough to make it gentle, painless, and loving... I like the idea of it, at least.
Sorry, I fucked up the formatting.
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

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May 27, 2020
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Vanish to a place where there are no other people, and without anybody else knowing that I have gone. A note will still be left behind (anonymously) in case the body is found by a stranger.

My ideal death? Undecided. Preferably a method that has a very high chance of succeeding, but will not immediately destroy my body and will not make a mess.
 
Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
18
If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?
Bleeding out in the snow, shot by a G3, 3 times. Lungs filling up with blood as I fade. That's basically it.

I write sometimes and this was how one of my characters dies, only one to get hit in an L shape ambush, they can't get to him because they're getting absolutely drilled by accurate fire, so they have to leave him.
 

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