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inkmage333

inkmage333

please just free me and let me die
Feb 18, 2025
113
I think I want to be killed by someone who loves me to the point of obsession. Or even do a double-suicide with a lover. It could be murder-suicide for all I care, I just want to die knowing someone loved me enough that they didn't want me to live without them.
 
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Implicit_Submission

Implicit_Submission

not a rascal. just a jackass.
Jan 12, 2026
8
i've always thought that the nightlock berries from the hunger games books/films wouldn't be a bad way to go. as an act of defiance with a lover, or not. going out on our own terms and refusing to be controlled.
 
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dayhell

dayhell

Member
Jul 6, 2025
52
i want to die in an explosion with my favorite fictional character who loves me
 
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urgent

Student
Dec 6, 2025
115
partner suicide with the person i love. i'm too selfish i don't want them to be alive without me and be with someone else. i wouldn't want them to have a painful death though. in a dream suicide i'd want there to be some type of substance we could take to just die peacefully in our sleep laying together and holding each other 😷
I'm in to much pain now so I don't even want to say goodbye or enjoy anything one last time. I wish right now a doctor could give me a shot of a sedative that could knock me right out and give me iv N. Whatever works quickest. I would drink the MAiD if I could get it. I would do the gas. Or there a leak and everyone just painlessly dies without knowing. I don't care as long as it's to quick to panic. You know when they wheel you into surgery and tell you to count and you're under so quick.If I could be at a location, given the iv and be cremated immediately so no one who cares about me has to see, cry. I remember the pain of loved ones suffering, dying, being taken out, funerals, going into the ground, it's gut wrenching. I don't know why anyone still does it. Just die, cremate ,no ceremony or anything, no crying over me. I hate to see anyone in any kind of pain. I don't want to be the cause of it. I'm ready, come get me,give me the iv on the way to be cremated, get it done in a hurry.
 
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Sardinha

Sardinha

I love jellyfishes
Dec 17, 2025
19
i have THREE ways I would LOVE to die::

first off, I ABSOLUTELY DON'T want to die and get buried in a coffin! i've spent my whole human life feeling sooo trapped... i want to be FREE!!! i'd die somewhere my body could feed new lives, like plants and animals and stuff. my remains would nourish... bird muscles, for example!! and in a way, i'd be flying right along with them!! i'd NEVER want to be stuck in a coffin, i want the cycle of life to just KEEP GOING!!

and if by some MISERABLE twist of fate they found my body and decided to bury me anyway, then please let it be in an open field and plant jasmines (my favorite flowers!!) right where I'm buried. i'd become flowers!! when someone came to visit, instead of some boring concrete box, there'd be a whole field of blooms

or... turn me into ashes and scatter them together with jasmine petals from a high place, like the top of a mountain or out over the sea. i'd LOVE letting the wind take me wherever it wanted, to some super cool spot or the most boring one ever... i wanna see it all
 
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urgent

Student
Dec 6, 2025
115
If someone could help me die now that would be my dream
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,045
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Eriktf

Elementalist
Jun 1, 2023
807
pass out from an od then die
 
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stardusted

stardusted

Member
Dec 28, 2025
17
if i could magically have whatever i wanted, i'd die falling asleep in my girlfriend's arms… more realistically, though, my ideal suicide would be somewhere outdoors. in a forest, maybe. i'd lay out a blanket for myself, drink the sn and then lie back and look up at the trees and peacefully slip away, hopefully. that sounds fairly plausible, right? i often think about what song i'd want to be listening to when i die, but i've decided i think i should go quietly.
 
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RaggedDoll

Member
Dec 18, 2025
10
The one that works, thats all I really want.
 
GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
83
falling "asleep" while listening to music would be lovely and ideal i think the most easy and peaceful. and doing it right after hanging out with my best friend so i could see them one last time. my last two attempts i tried to time it like that. while wearing the necklace they gave me so it's like they are with me...or just having them actually with me would be so nice


part of me likes the idea of jumping as well. would be less relaxing and i couldn't be listening to music as i go, but it appeals to me for some reason.
 
justanotherbody

justanotherbody

The Forgotten
Dec 18, 2025
71
To just not be. Press a button, cease existence. No pain, no suffering, no going back. Just off.

Closest equivalent is a shotgun.
 
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Abandoned Phantom

Abandoned Phantom

Member
Oct 3, 2025
87
To be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Like I'm going to the bank, and as I'm waiting in line, armed robbers come in blasting, and I catch a stray bullet which kills me. Or maybe I decide to play the hero. But it's a complete fluke! Without warning. SI cannot intervene, and nobody knows that I wanted to die anyways. Has everyone here seen the final destination films? Something like that might be nice. Not the constantly fearing death part, but the suddenly dying part.
 
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ToANewWorld

Rarity
Apr 16, 2025
94
Take the 5 drug execution mix. Close my eyes and go to sleep without ever waking up.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Member
Jan 11, 2026
91
I think a quiet place will suffice. I remember I overdid laughing gas in balloon and I almost passed out. I had a bad feeling but I believe it is the best method to CTB with gas. A mask + a gas tank and all the equipment to connect it. or of it is possible fill the room with that given the fact it won't hurt anyone and it is just as good. Then I would need to get drunk (I rarely drink) with some music. I will feel happy then with some lightheadedness and weakness I will slowly lay down feel heavy and drift away. Very uncomfortable but I think it is similar to anesthesia. Actually I don't mind getting that instead then gas.
 
darkandtwisty

darkandtwisty

Student
Jul 10, 2024
123
Nembutal. No questions asked. Unfortunately that's not an option so CO poisoning is my next preferred choice. Unfortunately, hanging or my ex's hand gun will be how I go.
 
LucifersIntrovert

LucifersIntrovert

Buried Alive
Sep 10, 2023
71
Might sound stupid but, just being in the rain not pouring but not a mist or light rain. And just existing while i have a show on and music playing. With my breathing slowing down breath by breath. Eyes getting heavy and vision blurring. Before i just cease to exist✨
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
220
I would like to simply die in the sleep and never wake up.
 
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DeathByBananabread

DeathByBananabread

Carol Kohl
Dec 30, 2025
77
i am perfectly fine with dying in the closet with a rope around my neck or passing on the couch after drinking a fatal dose of something.

i've been suicidal since i was so young that i didn't know how people did it and thought i'd literally have to find the courage to stab myself

when i learned about hanging that seemed relatively peaceful, i've also watched a lot of documentaries about MAID where people have to drink the cup and that seemed fine as well

all that leaves is how it would play out, hopefully not too painful or traumatic-looking to my family, but, whatever.
 
OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
374
Death in battle for a good cause.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Student
Sep 10, 2025
120
If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?
Ingest a pill, fall asleep in bed and never wake up... No pain, no discomfort.... No sound.. Just peaceful, eternal sleep
 
SomewhereNew

SomewhereNew

idk
Nov 2, 2025
68
Probably overdose first but my body is very resilient to chemicals. So next probably full suspension hang
 
shadow_sunset

shadow_sunset

Pro lifer detected, opinion rejected.
Jul 2, 2024
30
I think I want to be killed by someone who loves me to the point of obsession. Or even do a double-suicide with a lover. It could be murder-suicide for all I care, I just want to die knowing someone loved me enough that they didn't want me to live without them.
LITERALLY ME TOO
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,267
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movies4guys

movies4guys

Member
Jan 21, 2026
11
my unrealistic dream would be for it to be on a beautiful perfect spring day. like just laying in the sun with friends. and for it to be peaceful and quiet. maybe an overdose or some shit. and for them to understand why i'm leaving and sit with me until i'm gone.
 
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plan c

plan c

My last resort.
Nov 8, 2022
180
Double suicide with my love... or just very good friends in each other's cuddle. Can't figure out anything better.
 
fuzzypeach

fuzzypeach

Member
Jan 26, 2026
62
i never really thought about this, maybe having my loved ones around me to comfort me as i pass on?
 
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scHema

New Member
Dec 24, 2025
3
Cancer. I want it to be as painful as possible, so that i can finally pay for my mistakes. No way to get better. Maybe bone cancer or something. I want it to hurt for an year. No relief from the pain. When the day is close, I want to go back to my school and see it for the last time.

This way i don't have to deal with the responsibility of ctbing and my parents get a huge payout.
 
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pelicanportal

pelicanportal

Member
Jan 28, 2026
15
I wish I could say out in nature doing X, Y, Z. But realistically? Nembutal in my bed after a long, solid cry with that tiny bit of relief you have after.
 

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