What is your "dream" suicide?

[hypnoticpoisoned]

If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?

 

[LonelyPrince]

If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

Honestly, I've always had this specific immagery: me collapsing in a flower field as my vision grows dark and life drains out of me, probably from a lethal drug or something.
Netheless to say, my dream suicide is peaceful....and therefore impossible lol.

 

[IdentityDoe]

I would want to have a vivid dream of going to space, seeing different planets and stars, then jumping from the spaceship before suffocating from the oxygenless void. I've always wanted to go to space but few people ever get that opportunity...

 

[accountnamerequired]

I want a sarco pod suide pod/ painless and no risk of failing. Basically inert gas method but guaranteed to work and professional looking af

 

[woofwag]

I get access to N. And she's there, her gorgeous white hair spilling down her shoulders and swaddling my head. She pets my face and my cheeks, tells me, "my sweet perfect boy. I love you. I love you. I love you." I play with the beads on her bracelet that I've made her, because I can't stop giving these things to the people I love; I can't ever stop because I need to see someone else's face light up that way people's faces do when I give them things, the way I never can replicate. And I know she's crying, but it's out of love, not sadness, because she knows just as I do that I'm finally finding the peace I've always wanted. I just lay in her lap and fall asleep like that. Peaceful. Quick. In the warmth of her arms. A person who doesn't exist. And a person who, if she did, would likely never be able to see me die that way. I wag the tail I wish I had at the thought of it happening.

 

[author]

I have this romanticized idea in my head of a lover consensually killing me, maybe via poison of some kind, and cradling my head in their lap as I die. They make me look beautiful and serene, and then take care of my bones for the rest of their life. However I know it wouldn't be so painless or pretty in real life, so it's not really a genuine desire. I think I just want to go knowing that I'm loved and will be cared for in death. To end by the hand of someone who loves you enough to make it gentle, painless, and loving... I like the idea of it, at least.

 

[Deepdense]

The ideal manner for me is to die slowly in a funny way.

 

[fireproofvodka]

This is incredibly unrealistic on multiple levels and 100000% cringe, but maybe just going down one last trip down memory lane for a weekend or so with a loved one. Do our favourite things, in the best weather (AKA ideally chilly and muggy or foggy), go to stores I know we can't afford, admire natural sights, and wrap it up with a day just for us. Maybe watching our favourite movies together, drawing, listening to music, talking, or just enjoying each other's presence. I'd wanna also spend some time with both them and my parents. And finally, while listening to a CD we burned and cuddling, I'd wanna just fall asleep and never wake back up. Maybe it's hedonistic and unrealistic to want to spend that much time trying to cram life's pleasures into a few days with a person that would never agree to any of this, let alone holding me while I die of The Cause TM, but someone can dream. It'd be nice to go so happily and peacefully.

Realistically though? I'd probably try and fail to OD on shitty OTC drugs or fail at hanging with a curtain. Those are the methods I've come very close to using, anyway. Not very creative nor do I have the means to be able to ensure my CTB would go smoothly or even work in the first place lol. So, drawn out, painful liver failure via OTC meds it is I guess. LMAO.

 

[violetforever]

partner suicide with the person i love. i'm too selfish i don't want them to be alive without me and be with someone else. i wouldn't want them to have a painful death though. in a dream suicide i'd want there to be some type of substance we could take to just die peacefully in our sleep laying together and holding each other

 

[maplebar]

I'd go out to a river, there is a big one nearby me. I'd want to just lay face flat and let myself drown. Drowning doesn't sound very nice but it is the scenery that makes me want it to be my final sight before I go. I really like nature, so I'd like to be around it then.

 

[ScaredCutter]

medieval ways or much much older ones. idknwhich specific one though.

 

[Reznor09]

If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?

I always wanted to turn on some music I liked. Blast it loud and either slit my throat so I can bleed out to the song or use it to cover the sound when I shoot myself. I wanted it to be messy and bloody. That's just my stupid fantasy I guess.

 

[Arvayn]

I'd like to sacrifice myself in an ego-splitting magic ritual, where my soul and consciousness is split into two beings: One purely embodying the Jungian light aspects (altruism, power, hope, compassion etc.) of my ego, and the other purely embodying the shadow aspects (repression, deceit, narcissism, sadism etc.).
Basically, an entity that is senselessly good and virtuous, and an entity that is senselessly evil and malicious. I imagine they wouldn't look human. Either way, these entities would then proceed to fight one another due to being each other's antithetical equivalents, and whichever one comes out on top shall be the representation of what my 'truer self' was, as well as sealing my death.

A more "realistic" suicide, if magic isn't allowed, is to have a melee fight to the death with a mysterious man in the ruins of a dusty church, and for me to be coming out on top, only for him to abruptly step back and shoot me with a pistol that he had been secretly carrying despite the rules of the duel. I will die in a mixture of shock, disbelief and respect at the fact that he recognizes pragmatism always comes out on top, in the end.

 

[Sphinxi]

Ideally, it would be something where I could passively commit suicide. Under jewish law, suicide is frowned upon, and typically you are forbidden from mourning a death that is a suicide as you would a normal death. A situation like, say, a train hitting me while I was carelessly on the tracks, would allow me to avoid this, and receive traditional burial and mourning rites.

 

[ghosted1]

This will be heartless... but I want to be honest. Dying of a terminal illness would be my dream suicide. At the end you're on a lot of pain medication. You can let those who hurt you know what happened, just so they finally care about you, even if it is fake. You don't have to plan any CTB, you just have to wait. Even if it is pure agony.

 

[HowlingCoyote]

If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?

a lot of people say they want it to be painless, but i don't. i want it to be painful. i want to feel something at my end, to know i truly was alive, that i existed and at the end of it all i could still feel. i want it to be slow, so i can think of my whole life before its all gone. remember those who meant a lot to me even if i didn't mean anything to them after all. i want to say goodbye to everyone i did know, even people i haven't spoken to in years, i want them to know i was thinking of them, even if they hate me. i want to give my cats to someone i know will take care of them. give all my money to someone i love. i want to leave no stone unturned, take care of as much final business i can. and then i want to go painfully and slowly, bleed out or something, take something, anything that will let me feel something in my last moments.

 

[ReadyToLeave]

My dream suicide would be a basic cookie cutter setup. Just a standard assisted suicide clinic where I can get get all my I's dotted and T's crossed and then I can just got out quick and painless.

 

[Steve Vermont]

God kills me.

My "dream" suicide is not having to do it because I die a natural death before I get to the point where I kill myself. I can feel my suicide coming closer every day and I literally pray I die before it gets here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish to cease existing as peacefully and painlessly as possible, I'd be so relieved to finally be at peace from the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing, to me existence is just so evil, all it does is harm and torture existing beings with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, the existence of life is the most terrible, devastating tragedy and the only peace for me could lie in never suffering again.

To be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the extreme agony of old age is the most terrible, undeserved agonising punishment to me, non-existence is all I see as positive but what would be truly ideal to me is being able to erase this existence, all I want is for it to be like I was never burdened with the terrible, dreadful mistake of existence at all, I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

My ideal suicide would be a) mostly peaceful and b) look like an accident. The latter is a higher priority. Im practice, this might look like purposefully falling from a height and dying/going unconscious instantly upon hitting the ground. I guess it would be cool to do it while skiing or mountain biking or hiking or something because I like stuff like that. Of course, I could never put this into practice because there is too much risk of failure and serious injury.

 

[gourry]

gunning myself on livestream

 

[itsgone2]

It's not possible but I wish we had a switch. Just turn this all off.

 

[suicidefinnish]

Just going to sleep and never waking up

 

[OzymandiAsh]

The ideal manner for me is to die slowly in a funny way.

That's called life!!!!

 

[Lilithium]

I have this recurring dream where I am sitting under a large tree, and I'm having a picnic with my best friend and my stuffed animals. At some point, I start hugging my friend and my stuffies goodbye, then I retrieve this mesmerizing ball of really bright yellow light from my pocket, and I put it in my mouth and swallow it, like a pill, then lay my head back on the trunk of the tree, and I fall asleep, a sleep I'll never wake up from.

I guess some dreams are just reflections of things we desire but can't have

 

[BullsDon'tFly]

Any peaceful way that doesn't spoil the body too much: barbiturates or N2 exit bag, since I plan to give my organs to transplant.
Such a shame that a pretty healthy body (no allergies, no illnesses, just some skin issues) is paired with a depressed brain.

 

[phantasmagoria]

It would be with someone I love (they don't have to ctb but just be there), maybe someplace high like on a mountain because of the view, and with N as the method.

 

[thefarter]

Omg i just realised im gonna DO my ideal way.. like. via SN lol :3 yay! it lowkey didn't hurt my last attempt. so im hoping this time wont hurt either and i'll just pass out again but there will be no oxygen reaching my brain so i will lowkey die. without having to struggle too much.

and umm i would be alone, in the woods, call my bestie right before, tell her i love her forever, obviously not tell her about what im doing, try not to cry, and then i just drink it and pass away gently. yayyyyy

 

[Realgar]

Laying down in my bed at night time and drifting off to sleep....never to wake up.

 

[Green_leaf]