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Morris1211
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It would be nice if we could go peacefully and with dignity but most countries deny us that right for mental illness.Ideally I am hoping to get approved for assisted dying/euthanasia.
Failing that, probably SN if I can get my hands on it.
Otherwise I might have to take the train.
Well, I have been informed today that the psychiatrist I had for the past two years, and actually did make a tiny amount of progress with, will stop working at the end of April. I will try to convince the next one that I am beyond helping and ought to be allowed to die.It would be nice if we could go peacefully and with dignity but most countries deny us that right for mental illness.
By taking the train do you mean getting hit by a train?
I'd like firearms too since euthanasia isn't available for people like us unfortunately.Firearms. Because I can't use any other methods considering my health conditions. And firearms are the most reliable and convenient. You can't go back once you start. It's the fastest method. With the least agony according to lostallhope.com. Although I have some doubts about that lol
My priority at the moment is partial hanging as I've found reasonable success with it. If that fails I'll probably go with hanging. My last last resort is reducing Sodium Nitrate (NaNO3) to Sodium Nitrite (NaNO2)What method would you choose to CTB and why?
I wish I could get N
- Hanging – It's not strangulation, but rather a drop from the correct height. If done right, it's instantly fatal.
- SN – The most likely one. Takes a few minutes, and I already have everything prepared.
- N – The method my partner used. One sip means death in 1 minute. But I'm still trying to get it.
Assisted death would be my favorite too but it's extremely unlikely i would get that.Ideally I am hoping to get approved for assisted dying/euthanasia.
Failing that, probably SN if I can get my hands on it.
Otherwise I might have to take the train.
What was your failed attempt?One that's certain. Anyone who's failed attempts knows that horror and there is no fucking way am going through that again. This time I have backups and backups.
Is it hard to find the sweet spot? Do you know where you'll do it for FSH? What knot are you using for the noose?Either partial or full hanging. I've practised enough so that I can eventually find the sweet spot and it's a non messy method.
Hanging is not a good idea if you survive = vegetable..... partial hanging if done right with a good knot = your blood supply stays cut off and you wont wake up + its not a very painful method, similair to being choked out in martial arts, it takes 5 seconds ish of a pressure building feeling then you just black out (im speaking from experience as somone whos been choked out in mma and jiu jitus many times)
- Hanging – It's not strangulation, but rather a drop from the correct height. If done right, it's instantly fatal.
- SN – The most likely one. Takes a few minutes, and I already have everything prepared.
- N – The method my partner used. One sip means death in 1 minute. But I'm still trying to get it.
Thanks, I'll discard that method; I always thought it was very sinister too.Hanging is not a good idea if you survive = vegetable..... partial hanging if done right with a good knot = your blood supply stays cut off and you wont wake up + its not a very painful method, similair to being choked out in martial arts, it takes 5 seconds ish of a pressure building feeling then you just black out (im speaking from experience as somone whos been choked out in mma and jiu jitus many times)
Jumping isnt a good method i just wanna warn you that there is a high risk of surviving and then being disabled forever, unless you land perfectly on your head it risks a very slow and horrible death. There are much better methods jumping is a bad idea.Assisted death would be my favorite too but it's extremely unlikely i would get that.
So jumping would be mine but from like really really high, just to make sure.
Yeah its quite messed up, i mean we were born here without our consent and then on top of that its not as easy as "just leave then or ctb" because by the time you stop being a baby and get a conscious mind you already have aquired:For me it'd be a death as painless and guaranteed as possible, I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific, dreadful world where humans have made it illegal to die painlessly, all I want is a method like Nembutal, I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this torturous, painful and deeply undesirable existence ever again.
It's just such horrific extreme cruelty to me how humans impose this dreadful existence onto others that just causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured yet do all they can to make it so humans suffer for as much as long as possible, anti-suicide is so evil to me, it just causes so much more harm and suffering, the fact that I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently to escape from the suffering and torture of existing is such a terrible crime to me.
Hey hanging is a very bad method.....hanging takes longer ---> breaks your neck ---> if you srivive it = disabled + maybe brain damage.I think I might hang myself if I do make the decision to ctb, I know it's not the most peaceful method but I live in the uk where there isn't any chance I'm getting my hands on a gun, and it seems they've cracked down on SN here, making it difficult to acquire. From what I've read on (full suspension) hanging so far it seems that it would take under 20 seconds to lose consciousness so while it would be agonising at least it wouldn't last very long, then maybe I could be at peace
I think it would be fine if done from high enough. Like a few hundred meters. There is basically no chance of survival.Jumping isnt a good method i just wanna warn you that there is a high risk of surviving and then being disabled forever, unless you land perfectly on your head it risks a very slow and horrible death. There are much better methods jumping is a bad idea.
Do some research on partial hanging....I think it would be fine if done from high enough. Like a few hundred meters. There is basically no chance of survival.
But i don't think i could do it… thinking of other methods now…