That sounds like a really fun place! I've heard if it. I'd love to go sometime, especially after what you described. That sunset and sunrise with the music, and fun crowd sounds beautiful, I'm glad you have such a nice memory. On mdma I bet that was super crazy fun! I thought the park at night was was astonishing on mdma lol. That bar under the airport sounds fun too. I've never seen a bar like that! Do you get sad thinking about it cause you can't go back due to health issues? Or is it just hard to have fun like that with the depression? Sorry if I'm making you feel bad asking about it.
Yeah it really was amazing. It would be an amazing place to CTB too come to think about it, but probably not a good idea lol. It would be traumatic for others to witness. Yeah it does make me said that I'll never be able to experience it again, but at least I did do, most other people will never get that chance. I have depression because of all of my health issues, but that alone would not stop me from going there, in fact I'd say that that would help depression lol. It's hard to have fun with everything else I've got going on, I've had lots of accidents, injuries and botched surgeries which have left me with walking difficulties along with many other issues from all the trauma.
And no don't worry you're not making me feel bad, I actually like sharing my story. I'd obviously rather not have had to go through what I have or be in the position I'm in, but if sharing my story could help others on here think to themselves "you know what, my depression (or whatever their reason to want to CTB is) is actually not that bad, in fact I'd say my life is pretty good compared to what others are dealing with, so I think I'll not end my life and try and enjoy it"…. or something like that, that was just an example, but I'm sure you get my point. What I'm trying to say is that if I can help others realise that things are not so bad for them to CTB, and save even just one life by sharing my story, then I'd be very happy indeed. I don't actually want to die, and I'm sure many others on here don't either, it's just we've found ourselves in an unfortunate set of circumstances and it seems like that's the best option for us. For me, that is best option unfortunately, because I've got a lot going on, and no one can help me, I've tried everything. If you want to read some of my story please check out the link out below where I share some of it on another thread, and believe it or not that's not everything (I'd have to write a book for that lol), I've been through
a lot more.
Post in thread 'Right To Die organizations for tinnitus'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/right-to-die-organizations-for-tinnitus.239095/post-3453137
You don't have to be a Swiss citizen to get assisted ctb? That would be wonderful. Way more peaceful than dealing with the alternative. It's very tough dealing with chronic health issues i understand. It's cruel to deal with. Yeah, if your parents need to sign off that would be extremely hard to do though. Not many parents would want to feel responsible. Dealing with a body if you travel to ctb never crossed my mind. That sounds complicated. I'm sorry you even have to think about this. No one should have to.
No, they provide the service for international patients too. It's expensive, but everything is included, cremation, URN, and URN shipping back to home. It's like an all-inclusive package holiday/vacation but with no return flight lol. Yeah I don't think my parents would sign off on it because I think they're hoping that my situation may improve and I'll be able to have some sort of a meaningful life, but I know that that's impossible. If you read some of my story and realise the type of person I must have been compared to what I am now, you'll understand why I'll never be able to have life that is meaningful (to me) ever again. I used to be so fit and active and now I'm trapped in a body that doesn't work properly. Most people would look at me and not even realise what's going on with me because I still look fit and healthy (apart from a bit of an abnormal gait due to a problem with my leg and pelvis), but that's just because I've been involved in all kinds of sports and exercise since I was a kid and used to be extremely fit. Plus, I hide everything so well and most of my other issues are under the surface and/or invisible to others (which makes my situation all the more frustrating and challenging because most people assume I'm doing ok by the way I look).
Here's another one of my posts about what's brought me here (if you or anyone else reading this are interested). But with the link above as well, you may want grab some popcorn, a soda, and put your feet up
, it'll be a bit of a read.
Post in thread 'Postponed my suicide again. I feel like an idiot'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...gain-i-feel-like-an-idiot.240269/post-3448138
. But I definitely agree with the music, some chilled Ibiza dance tunes for me, they would remind me of some amazing times in Ibiza, in the bars, the clubs, and on the beach…..when life was good. 
