Discussion what are things you want to experience or try before leaving?

[yearned]

self-explanatory. im trying to conjure some thoughts up but can't right now. i wonder what are things you want to try or experience before CTB. when i was using drugs, i really wanted to experience a dmt breakthrough at least once (i still havent, only got halfway there). i would love to try base-jumping. i would love to document my parents life experience through interviews as a time capsule for perennity. turns out i have conjured some thoughts, your turn !!!

 

[skyisblue]

Sky-diving, but i don't think I'll get that opportunity before i CTB. being in the air seems so nice

 

[Bsauce]

when i was using drugs, i really wanted to experience a dmt breakthrough at least once (i still havent, only got halfway there)

I'd recommend ayahuasca, it'll get you there.

I would like to go rogue for a week, detach from everything, stay in a nice quiet place in the woods. Actually the main motivation for me to CTB is the impossibility to live like that.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

jetskiing, flying a plane or helicopter (even just for 30 seconds lol),
thats all i can think of rn.
i already did bungee jumping at a big festival before.
there was no enjoyment in it i only bungee jumped for the bragging rights.

 

[s_o_a]

even though it sounds cliché, but real love. or even a deep platonic relationship.

 

[WaistedPotential]

I just want to lie down and hold someone in earnest so I can imagine what it would be like to have a deep, long-lasting connection. I don't think I would want to CTB so often if I had that.

 

[divinemistress87]

5 meo dmt and skydiving

 

[FrustratedMTFtrans]

HIV with progression to AIDS as further justification to CTB, not that I really need any further justification.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

nothing. I don't want to experience nor try anything in this hell ever

 

[FailedNav]

To be honest, most "adventures" I've had were, in the end, somewhat underwhelming. My personality type leads to worrying about things going wrong so i will "over plan". And I don't tend to remember things in positive terms. But I can remember the negative aspects like it happened 5 minutes ago.

For instance, I tried zip lining once. Nothing really when wrong and it was fun I guess. But when I think about it now I don't get any kind of rush or anything. But I can remember one of the instructors getting on me about getting my harness tightened. THAT I remember vividly. Even right now, I get a kind of shock thinking about it.

So there really isn't anything I want to experience. It wouldn't live up to the hype.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't, I'd never wish to experience anything at all rather all I want is to be permanently unconscious free from all torture, pain and suffering, no matter what only non-existence could ever be positive for me.

I'll always and only hope for the peace of non-existence and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, to suffer in this existence truly is the most terrible, torturous burden to me and it's one that only ever causes all this dreadful, futile suffering, more than anything I wish I never suffered, to me existence will just always be the most cruel mistake.

 

[negi-maguro]

Trying out mind-altering and psychedelic drugs like weed, lsd, or mushrooms. I've never experienced getting high despite really wanting to try it. I could never find a plug or just someone willing to share. I came from a socially conservative country that bans all drugs. However, I think getting drugs here should not be that hard because some of my friends have talked and shared their experiences using them. But no matter how much I hinted that I wanted to try them too, none of my friends invited or shared their sources with me. I guess I'm way too square and lame for it, so I'm stuck with reading stuffs in erowid. But for once, I just want to feel detached from this world before I die. Hell, maybe the experience would keep me here a little longer.

 

[E4syW3y0u7]

So many many things but it doesn't matter anymore does it ? And most importantly, it's things that i would have wanted to do with someone in particular but i can't do it no more. Doesn't have the same taste now that i'm fixated on ctb.

 

[kunikuzushi]

usually i would say nothing. because nothing has brought me joy my whole life. but since ctb is soon, random thing i want to try is skating. i'm buying a skateboard this week.

 

[Kikorama]

Intimacy with a woman

I have chronic pain condition that makes me most days to be in pain i'm not an ugly guy but not super handsome either i'm also 5'5 that only dificults things, I'm 24 and a virgin due mostly to my cripling chronic pain condition i have on my limbs and social anxiety but Since i feel like i'm gonna die anyway because my condition dosen't seem to have treatment i'm losing the fear because i have nothing to lose anymore.

As of few days i installed dating apps and i got like 25 matches only about 3-4 are quality ones, i get a few conversations here and there and found that my fear to talking to women is not as scary as i tought it would be.

Conversations usually go fine until I ultimatly i try to escalate to get instagram, the girls get spooked and ghost me, I feel like Dating apps are not the way to go as girls are low commitment and i feel like they just using me for Ego boost and attention, I'm just gonna looksmaxx possbile get lean, wear lifts to be like 5'8, wear concealer to cover my tired face imperfections and Start cold approaching in public and keep dating apps in the background.

Unlike majority of people here i don't actually want to die, but i feel like as for my chronic pain health condition with doctors not being able to figure out a treatment to give me quality of life soo i can Work and be a normal person i just feel empty inside leading me to wish to die because thats the only alternative the chronic pain condition goes away

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

5 meo dmt and skydiving

Have you seen the video of the guy that did intravenous DMT and felt like he was in another dimension for 5 hours? I'd love to have an experience like this because I want to see if it feels real or more like a hallucination or something along those lines.

 

[Isolatedloner]

I'd do some DMT but putting off ctb right now. Also why not take one strong opioid lol. Or use a little codeine and make lean lol. But I'm abstaining from opioid's. I also want to go do some things in nature.

 

[birdbones]

I quit vaping and smoking last year. It seems silly to abstain now that I've made up my mind to CTB, so I'd really just like to buy a vape or a pack of cigarettes. But if I did that it would be a huge giveaway into my plans. I'm already downsizing my belongings. But damn, all I want is some nicotine and that sweet burn in my lungs.

 

[SighCry]

I've been doing as many things as I can as I anticipate CTBing in the next 2-3 months. I've been going to my favourite restaurants, went skydiving, had a new/different sexual experience, asked for forgiveness/forgave some people, spent time with fam/friends, am staying at a really nice hotel for a few nights soon.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Of the unrealistic things: See a beautiful coastline from the point of view of a canoe. Be good at fencing and rowing. All of which won't happen because I'm so unfit now and don't have enough drive to change that. Neither do I want to give up one of the only things I still enjoy- comfort food.

Of the more achievable things: See a few beautiful lanscapes again- with water in. The sea, waterfalls, lakes, rivers. Play Subnautica 2. All water related really.

A binge on biscuits before I go is likely too. May as well indulge in an unhealthy coping mechanism before I go.