salviap
I am no longer interested in the world.
- Apr 7, 2024
- 61
Shitpost. For the most part. I'm currently out visiting some friends near northwest AR. Granted, there are large patches of trees and isolated forests/creeks adjacent to where my friends are staying, which gives me the
perfect opportunity (presumably) to CTB while I am here, hundreds of miles away from any family members.
I know that would be a cruel thing to do while on vacation, but it is easiest. Easiest because I am further away from home.
I need a way out, being miserable here is the perfect incentive. I do not return back home until next Thursday, it is now Saturday which gives me plenty of time to decide what I should be doing.
Lying out near the train tracks waiting for the train to pass? Somehow, some way getting rope to pull off some FSH magic here.
I will most likely be wandering out tonight while they are asleep to look for a perfect spot, which I know is attainable. Not sure how to predict when the train comes, I know the least about trains… we don't have many back at home.
I am very miserable and am unable to eat. I woke up this morning with debilitating hypoglycemia, obvious weakness and fatigue.. I threw some OTD zofran under my tongue and force fed myself some strawberries and yogurt to help me with the electrolyte imbalance/low blood glucose. There are plenty of reasons as to why I am so fucking miserable here, but the list is much too long to explain in just one post.
I will be giving updates as time passes, but I will most likely be dead by Wednesday night, before my returning flight. Of course, assuming that all plays out well.
Or maybe I am too uncertain for this to even work.
perfect opportunity (presumably) to CTB while I am here, hundreds of miles away from any family members.
I know that would be a cruel thing to do while on vacation, but it is easiest. Easiest because I am further away from home.
I need a way out, being miserable here is the perfect incentive. I do not return back home until next Thursday, it is now Saturday which gives me plenty of time to decide what I should be doing.
Lying out near the train tracks waiting for the train to pass? Somehow, some way getting rope to pull off some FSH magic here.
I will most likely be wandering out tonight while they are asleep to look for a perfect spot, which I know is attainable. Not sure how to predict when the train comes, I know the least about trains… we don't have many back at home.
I am very miserable and am unable to eat. I woke up this morning with debilitating hypoglycemia, obvious weakness and fatigue.. I threw some OTD zofran under my tongue and force fed myself some strawberries and yogurt to help me with the electrolyte imbalance/low blood glucose. There are plenty of reasons as to why I am so fucking miserable here, but the list is much too long to explain in just one post.
I will be giving updates as time passes, but I will most likely be dead by Wednesday night, before my returning flight. Of course, assuming that all plays out well.
Or maybe I am too uncertain for this to even work.
