Discussion this site means so much to me

[akira.kewl]

I don't really contribute much at all on here. I'm not that active and when I do post, it's wordy nonsense that gets no replies. I've never even attempted to ctb before. But I just can't help but think about how much SaSu has helped me. I wouldn't say it "saved my life" (lol) but I've never felt such community, it's so comforting and relieving to be able to just talk about suicide without worrying about making anyone uncomfortable or getting thrown into a ward. I can talk about my thoughts and plans, and people don't try to talk you out of it, but are equally accepting if you choose not to do it & want to recover.

These thoughts are such a big part of myself, and here I don't feel like I have to be anyone but me. I get to see so many people just like me and listen to their stories, and it makes me think that just maybe, I'm not alone in this, other people understand. And there's so much information that the usual web censors, as if "help is available♡♡♡" is gonna help anyone not ruin their lives. Ironically enough, this place has helped me not to impulsively attempt. I don't know what I'd do without it, I'd probably have tried to ctb in a shitty way and crippled myself if I never found it.

Can u guys relate?

 

[dreaming]

I'm not sure what to say, but yeah, I feel similarly.
especially on the note of "Ironically enough, this place has helped me not to impulsively attempt."
I actually find it very comforting, I can be unfiltered without people whining at me not to kms the moment I say something vaguely "concerning" which is kinda what I was looking for.

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

Yea I can relate to this.

It feels good to be able to vent without normal people freaking out around me. I often say I want to kill myself, then normal people make a very big case about it, which for me is common as breathing.

I kind of feel afraid of talking about my suicide ideations on real life, but here I feel free to talk widely and open about it without people overreacting.