Help The thoughts are getting worse

[tiltedcompass]

It's been like a week since, but now I have recurrent suicidal thoughts. It's almost as if it's the only thing I can think of and it's driving me crazy. It's almost like suicide is another task I have to do, the last one.
I don't want to die yet, but the thoughts are getting louder and I tried to strangle myself several times now, and I also tried to jump off the window days ago and today. I couldn't bring myself to it because I'm scared
What do I do? I can't seem to distract myself with the things I like doing, everything feels dull. Please help

 

[jnohojo77]

i dont have any advice or anything to give and im feeling the exact same way, even when my life is supposedly supposed to be better. its been gnawing at me and im close to relapsing on drugs again. but just want you to know that youre not alone in this, you arent the only person feeling this way and we struggle, but we struggle together

 

[MyLastTour]

It's been like a week since, but now I have recurrent suicidal thoughts. It's almost as if it's the only thing I can think of and it's driving me crazy. It's almost like suicide is another task I have to do, the last one.
I don't want to die yet, but the thoughts are getting louder and I tried to strangle myself several times now, and I also tried to jump off the window days ago and today. I couldn't bring myself to it because I'm scared
What do I do? I can't seem to distract myself with the things I like doing, everything feels dull. Please help

If it's getting to the point where you're actually trying to kill yourself when you don't want to or aren't ready, I think you should check-in to some emergency care or head somewhere you know you'll be safer. Nothing's helping, and it isn't what you really want by the sound of it, so what do you have to lose? Either that or try talking to someone you trust irl to give you some support.

Try to slow things down and just do what you can, that's all anyone should ask of you. We're here for you.