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noname223

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Yeah I deleted the poll. It made me look like a psychopath. Lol. I would have gotten ratioed massively.

I am surprised about the results though. The researcher in the article had a different opinion on what people would actually do.
I also asked AI about it. It also agreed that most people would do it under certain circumstances. My friends probably would say now and many of you: Never trust AI chatbots.
I am wondering what this says about me. Lol. I think I am good at ruminating. I think now everyone who reads this will wonder what I am refering to. It is probably a massive scandal from now on. And my reputation is forever ruined.

This is more of a joke I think it wasn't that bad.
 
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Yeah I deleted the poll. It made me look like a psychopath. Lol. I would have gotten ratioed massively.

I am surprised about the results though. The researcher in the article had a different opinion on what people would actually do.
I also asked AI about it. It also agreed that most people would do it under certain circumstances. My friends probably would say now and many of you: Never trust AI chatbots.
I am wondering what this says about me. Lol. I think I am good at ruminating. I think now everyone who reads this will wonder what I am refering to. It is probably a massive scandal from now on. And my reputation is forever ruined.

This is more of a joke I think it wasn't that bad.
mmm, on a side note, I had a post deleted without notification (it was on @Chemi 's thread, and was a reply to @martydom )... which was odd, but my persistent save-page and someone letting me know... helped me find it.

I don't think I replied to ur poll, so it's not in my SaSu 'cache' (for better or worse).
 
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"Who are you?"
"I am Death." said the creature. "I thought that was obvious."
"But you're so small!"
"Only because you are small. You are young and far from your death, September, so I seem as anything would seem if you saw it from a long way off; very small, very harmless. But I am always closer than I appear. As you grow, I shall grow with you... until at the end, I shall loom huge and dark over your bed... and you will shut your eyes so as to not see me."
 
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I don't want to brag and make all of you envy me...but I am now number 16 on the list with members with the most posts on here. I want a medal of honor. Other people brag with their new car, their money or whatever hedonistic pleasure. But I am NUMBER 16 ON THE BIGGEST SUICIDE FORUM OF THE WHOLE FUCKING PLANET. JK.
Even though, I ask myself whether there are bigger suicide forums in asia.
 
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I don't want to brag and make all of you envy me...but I am now number 16 on the list with members with the most posts on here. I want a medal of honor. Other people brag with their new car, their money or whatever hedonistic pleasure. But I am NUMBER 16 ON THE BIGGEST SUICIDE FORUM OF THE WHOLE FUCKING PLANET. JK.
Even though, I ask myself whether there are bigger suicide forums in asia.
#16 out of thousands of monthly active users (users who have posted in the last month... estimated) is awesome!

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I took a long break from dating and dating apps. I decided to give it another shot. I really like to text but only if the contact lasts. Otherwise it feels like a complete waste of time. And I am so much overthinking when it is romantically. Yesterday someone messaged me and invested a lot of effort in the message. We exchanged a few messages and she put a lot of effort in it. I had a good feeling we shared some similiarities. And she isn't responding anymore. I think she ghosts me. I really start to hate dating in general. It hurts so much and ended in so many disappointments. One short time was amazing at the start of 2025. But the rest was just abysmal.

I watch champions league today. I have a VPN and I have such a good deal. I pay not much for the best VPN to bypass geoblocking. I pay 26€ per year. Usually the VPN costs more than 50€ per year. And usually champions league soccer would cost 50 euros per month in my country. The time with my close friend yesterday Was pretty good.

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Okay good news. She finally texted me. And she texted me a huge wall of text. She seems to be quite intelligent and eloquent. However, she seems to be highly interested in astrology. And wants to dive deep into it. Honestly, I think astrology is bogus and superstitious. Besides of that she is quite interesting.
One reason why the notion hurt that she ghosts me. Astrology is no deal breaker for me. She seems to be a little bit interested politics. At least she is not apolitical. I never met a woman with whom I texted who was into politics. It is my autistic special interest. The first woman I ever dated told me I talk way too much about it. Since then I tried to change in conversations. I think I am the only good man she ever met romantically in her life. She experienced traumata with other men. But I am the exception which feels good. We still have some contact but she is now married to her female best friend.
 
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I want to see if reaching 30 posts unlocks the Private Chat feature. Got invited to one the other day, couldn't see the message.

This will be a bit of an artificial way to do it.
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Ahh, it won't go up from here.
 
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I want to see if reaching 30 posts unlocks the Private Chat feature. Got invited to one the other day, couldn't see the message.

This will be a bit of an artificial way to do it.
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noname223

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I feel totally comfortable posting here. There are only 12 guests watching me. And if I post the number might go up to 50. Lol. I have nothing to hide xD

Your homie might have a date this weekend. It is the woman I texting with the last two days. The conversation is very very interesting. She is into philosophy.
The problem I am a mental wreck and the last date in January was a car crash. I think the chemistry was pretty bad though. I had good dates in the past.

For me the date is too early. I haven't warned her about anything. I would like to hint that I am neurodiverse. I will post a thread on here about this evening. Maybe I will have no time for this though.

She sent me a lyrics that alluded that if we sex is half good as the conversation we will have kids.

She also asked me to spend the evening until the night. First I thought she meant a meeting over night. This would have been insane. I think though this would be way too early. Most men with more experience tell me less texting and earlier meetings. I think I am good at texting. Meeting were very heterogenous in the past. Sometimes horrible, sometimes very good. But I am better when there is some transparency. I might open up a little bit. I am really not sure. I am really nervous. She is extremely interesting. I don't want to fuck it up.
 
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Omg I finally unlocked the search function and can view ppl's profiles ToT
 
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I like stuff.

Do you guys like stuff?

Right now I'm listening to Tinnitus therapy stuff. Its actually just raindrops. So it sounds like wet stuff.

Yes I'm tired, I need sleep.
 
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I feel totally comfortable posting here. There are only 12 guests watching me. And if I post the number might go up to 50. Lol. I have nothing to hide xD

Your homie might have a date this weekend. It is the woman I texting with the last two days. The conversation is very very interesting. She is into philosophy.
The problem I am a mental wreck and the last date in January was a car crash. I think the chemistry was pretty bad though. I had good dates in the past.

For me the date is too early. I haven't warned her about anything. I would like to hint that I am neurodiverse. I will post a thread on here about this evening. Maybe I will have no time for this though.

She sent me a lyrics that alluded that if we sex is half good as the conversation we will have kids.

She also asked me to spend the evening until the night. First I thought she meant a meeting over night. This would have been insane. I think though this would be way too early. Most men with more experience tell me less texting and earlier meetings. I think I am good at texting. Meeting were very heterogenous in the past. Sometimes horrible, sometimes very good. But I am better when there is some transparency. I might open up a little bit. I am really not sure. I am really nervous. She is extremely interesting. I don't want to fuck it up.
Tomorrow will be the date. I got a new hair cut today. I am really really nervous. We might fit pretty good. She is very articulate and the vocabulary she uses is rather unusual. Friends of me told me we might be a good match. Everyday we are sending each other huge walls of text. And in some ways they are philosophical essays mixed with humor and personal anecdotes. She told me she finds it astonishing that I am really interested in a close emotional bond.

We don't know how each other look. Tbh I think I don't look too bad. I am have no idea how she looks like. She could also have blue short hair in my imagination. In some ways she is weird. But I am also very weird. I am probably more weird than her. My anxietiy isn't my outer apperance. My fear is I am pretty much a loser. Only one romantic experience thus far, currently on a long hiatus from college. She knows nothing about my dire college situation. We have extremely personal conversations where we show each other otherour vulnerabilities. But I think the house of cards might break down tommorow if she asks question what i am actually doing to earn a living.

Before the date in January I knew me and this woman won't fit probably anyway. It was more an exercise to get a feeling for the dating life. again This time. We could fit to each other. And exactly this scares the shit out of me. The stakes are very high. And I am socially weird. I have issues with eye contact. And I am more isolated after the self-help group disaster. Actually it could make me really depressed and suicidal if I fuck it up tomorrow. I will take a benzo and I am on sleeping pills since two days. I might post less on here as long as I am texting with her. Though, my gut feeling says tokmorrow this will become another car crash and I will cry my eyes out on here because I will otherwise bee unable to cope with the emotional pain.
 
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noname223

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Okay I become really really anxious. We changed the messenger. And I sent her a picture of myself.
I already was ghosted one time when sending a woman a picture of me on this app. On the app there are no pictures of you.
There as no confirmation why she ghosted me last year. We had a good chemistry texted so much. Then we changed the messenger. She continued texting me for 1-2 days and then suddenly no more response. Sne never replied back even though I was very kind when I texted her for the last time. I am not sure what the reason was. My horrible former therapist thought maybe it was my outer appearance because suddenly afterwards she ghosted me without any apparant reason. I think this conclusion could be wrong though. Retrospectively I had more of the feeling she might have been a borderline patient. My therapist also considered that reason likely.

I think all of this shit had a really bad impact on my catastrophizing. Honestly, I don't have big issues because of my outer appearance. I am very critical on myself and I am doing self-loathing a lot. But my outer appearance isn't among them. Many women told me I looked really good. Also women I dated. Like the woman I had first sexual experiences with last year. I sent the woman with whom I might have a date tomorrow the picture that was considered the best of all my dating pictures rated by two women and a dating app algorithm. You know of this dating bullshit can really worsen all of your insecurities.

The only thing that comforts me. If she ghosts me because of my outer appearance it is not the end of the world. If that's the case she is probably superifical. I am quite thin some women like that. Others prefer muscular men. The really good thing is. No woman has ever left me for the reason that scares me the most. My incoming poverty and my inability to hold a job. If a woman rejects me for that. I will die. I will die because of the emotional impact this will have on me. I never was fully honest about that. Because I self-loath me so much. With the borderline woman I met last year I was more open with it than any time before. She told me she would be willing to wait for a miracle if I cannot work. Honestly, this was such an amazing experience. The only problem is retrospectively she was clearly idealizing me. Her reaction on me becoming paranoid was so fucking cute. But after our first date she started bullying me. And she started to ghost me with obvious lies.

I am so thankful for Sanctioned Suicide. This anxiety is eating me alive. I cannot even read my articles anymore.

She replied my height is a problem for her. I have exactly average height for males in my country. The contact was extremely deep it surprises me that this is no the deal breaker. LMAO. I think I can live with that.
 
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