Soon

[woofwag]

I'm going to be dying soon. My meto finally shipped and I have my SN (plz don't DM for source, I only give those out when I trust people and I can't seem to trust anyone rn). I only have enough money for rent for this month. Next month I'm totally fucked. I don't want to live past then anyway. I'm so fucking tired. And I'm tired of being tired. Even my therapist said she didn't know how to help me. That I seemed "determined to die." And I am. I'm tired of trying thing after thing and having it never work. I'm tired of meeting people and having them like me, but never being able to quite breach that barrier into being close with them. I'm tired of the people I am close with telling me I can't die, giving me solutions I know won't work, and I'm tired of dealing with their problems too. Call me selfish, I don't care. I fail at everything. Never made it with my creative pursuits, never had enough credits to graduate when I thought I did, tried for months and never got a job, never got good at driving, at art, at writing, all I ever had was "potential," potential that I'm too physically and mentally disabled to ever fully live up to. Plus fucking lazy. I don't want solutions or fixes. I'm too tired and jaded to bother.

So. End of this month or beginning of next and I'll be dead. Just thought I'd get this out there. Idk where else to put it since I can't tell anyone else in my life.

 

[SmellsLikeNapalm]

Godspeed man

We'll see you on the other side

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I understand the tired of being tired feeling, the money issues, the neverending cycle. I'm sorry for where you find yourself, sending love.

 

[Malfunction]

I'm having a fairly shit day myself, but I do understand where you're coming from. I'm just a write-off myself.

I wish you peace and good luck friend.

 

[TheHolySword]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for