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coldcontact

coldcontact

cherished
Mar 7, 2023
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here's an ambient piece i wrote a little over a year ago :)
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

:3
Apr 10, 2025
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2011-12-30 (from an HDD backup, I was 7.5 years old at the time... now I'm 21.... original filename is preserved too!) 5859506hkfbc447y64758rkfjif66969
 
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telekon

Specialist
Feb 5, 2025
370
Song I made with some clips I found:

My cover of All You Need Is Love:
 
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Falling Down
Jun 11, 2025
309
A self-portrait I made back in 2021, when I was still trying to hold onto making art. It's one of the last complete pieces I've ever made. The only change I made since then was blurring and covering up my initials.

!!! It's not a fully original work, however !!! I used 2 images from a game by Kanoguti - Intelligent-Rackety-Paradise, those are the smiley face sprite, and the glitchy bars covering the words, which I heavily edited. Even when I try to make something of my own, I can't help but copy or straight up steal things.

 FACE FINAL SASU VER

There was a version of this without the smiley face "mask" and the glitches censoring the words, but I deleted the PSD way back then, and it is now forever gone. You can only guess what is underneath them (hint: it's not complements).
 
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Ladyybugged

𝑺𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒓 <3
Oct 21, 2025
63
 
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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,434
Three "pieces" I "wrote" specifically to post here (originally on my profile).
All untitled.





 
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UnoriginalName21

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Nov 1, 2025
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I sometimes like to make art in desmos graphing calculator because im a fucking nerd. As of recent I haven't had motivation to do anything but heres a piece that Ive made.
 
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Falling Down
Jun 11, 2025
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I sometimes like to make art in desmos graphing calculator because im a fucking nerd. As of recent I haven't had motivation to do anything but heres a piece that Ive made.
You're a modern day wizard, holy. Can't even begin to imagine how long it took to draw? compute?
 
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woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
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I sometimes like to make art in desmos graphing calculator because im a fucking nerd. As of recent I haven't had motivation to do anything but heres a piece that Ive made.
duuude I totally forgot desmos existed 😭 I've never seen someone do something like this with it tho this is so freaking cool
 
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adiosToreador

adiosToreador

dESPERADO ROCKET CHAIRS,
Aug 6, 2025
17
made this of my favorite ocs a couple days ago }:) 1000023366
 
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kiwimochii

kiwimochii

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Nov 5, 2025
27
I love her so much. I hope this gives you as much joy as it gave me
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Lycoris

Lycoris

a living ghost
Mar 9, 2023
59
092323 Tree
I digitally painted this years ago when I was deep in a depressive episode. I think I really loved the idea of sunsets and how peaceful an ending can be. Maybe it was a bit of a coping mechanism but I hope my passing feels like that piece
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
387
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I only have some photos of my old sketches, they got thrown out or lost when I was homeless.
I've stopped drawing since.
 

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thebayleaf

my thoughts will follow you into your dreams
Nov 6, 2025
60
don't wanna risk posting too much of my work because i have a sorta popular art account on twitter that i'd rather not be traced back to >.< anyway here's two pieces i'm pretty proud of. (don't mind the scribbles on them, that's where i've covered up my signature)

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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,434
It's funny how this stuff I post is not the kind of shit I'd be making if I had studio access. It's something to do, but I'd never listen to such banal computer music.
Well...maybe someone else will enjoy or be inspired to create by it



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I sometimes like to make art in desmos graphing calculator because im a fucking nerd. As of recent I haven't had motivation to do anything but heres a piece that Ive made.
Do you mean to tell me those equations made the picture? wtf

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I digitally painted this years ago when I was deep in a depressive episode. I think I really loved the idea of sunsets and how peaceful an ending can be. Maybe it was a bit of a coping mechanism but I hope my passing feels like that piece
This is lovely.

Fugazi's I'm So Tired. My anxiety always spikes when I record with the intent to share so I have some trouble getting enough breath in.

edit - hmm, is there a way to have an embedded video player without linking offsite?
Wholesome af.
to the edit - no, afaik

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I only have some photos of my old sketches, they got thrown out or lost when I was homeless.
I've stopped drawing since.
Hope one day you might pick up the pencil again...

don't wanna risk posting too much of my work because i have a sorta popular art account on twitter that i'd rather not be traced back to >.< anyway here's two pieces i'm pretty proud of. (don't mind the scribbles on them, that's where i've covered up my signature)

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I will pretend you are Omocat
 
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gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
387
It's funny how this stuff I post not the kind of shit I'd be making if I had studio access. It's something to do but, I'd never listen to such banal computer music.
Well...maybe someone else will enjoy or be inspired to create by it
Honestly I like it, made me imagine a cyberpunk style game. I like a scene were you looking for a damn switch or something to open a mechanic.
 
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U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,434
Honestly I like it, made me imagine a cyberpunk style game. I like a scene were you looking for a damn switch or something to open a mechanic.

Thank you. Part of why it's not satisfying is it's all done with pre-installed loops (which any GarageBand wiz would spot), and my lack of physical workstation makes editing them significantly - which would amount to some amount of originality - tedious to the point of me not doing it.
So, feels more like putting a puzzle together than painting a picture. Or something.

The below is what I'd rather be making anyway. Disclaimer I just shat this out to serve as an example. The drums are machine but the rest isn't. I don't play anymore and/because my hands are still fucked/it's boring alone.
Really it's not worth the data it's taking up to exist, but oh well, I'm a prick

 
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gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
387
Thank you. Part of why it's not satisfying is it's all done with pre-installed loops (which any GarageBand wiz would spot), and my lack of physical workstation makes editing them significantly - which would amount to some amount of originality - tedious to the point of me not doing it.
So, feels more like putting a puzzle together than painting a picture. Or something.

The below is what I'd rather be making anyway. Disclaimer I just shat this out to serve as an example. The drums are machine but the rest isn't. I don't play anymore and/because my hands are still fucked/it's boring alone.
Really it's not worth the data it's taking up to exist, but oh well, I'm a prick
I'm envious you can just shit out tunes like that honestly, it's genuinely something I'd vibe to in the background. I like tried to play acoustic and used to sing when I was young, never made anything fruitful tho. Can I ask what groups or what influence what you just made, if any? Because it's jogging my memory of a familiar song and vibe but I can't think of which one argh

Lack of workstation as in space or equipment? If I may ask.
Sorry about your hands btw, I can relate in maybe a small sense, I have two messed up fingers.
 
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kiwimochii

kiwimochii

Member
Nov 5, 2025
27
Here's another yobber! Looking at her makes me so happy!!
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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,434
I'm envious you can just shit out tunes like that honestly, it's genuinely something I'd vibe to in the background. I like tried to play acoustic and used to sing when I was young, never made anything fruitful tho. Can I ask what groups or what influence what you just made, if any? Because it's jogging my memory of a familiar song and vibe but I can't think of which one argh

Lack of workstation as in space or equipment? If I may ask.
Sorry about your hands btw, I can relate in maybe a small sense, I have two messed up fingers.

Thanks - influences there are too many to name; all the old black american blues guys from the 30s-50s, then the young white americans and brits who ripped 'em off and formed the basis of rock that extends to today. I could never place a single song that reminded you of, especially if it were a modern one as I'm out of touch, lol

Both; my entire "setup" is just an ancient secondhand mac so you can imagine how limiting it is. Having to do every single thing via keyboard and trackpad means I do less given it's annoying and I often forget about settings, being only able to see one group at a time as you are..!
 
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webb&flow

webb&flow

dum spiro spero—take it as it comes
Nov 30, 2024
553
Thank you. Part of why it's not satisfying is it's all done with pre-installed loops (which any GarageBand wiz would spot), and my lack of physical workstation makes editing them significantly - which would amount to some amount of originality - tedious to the point of me not doing it.
So, feels more like putting a puzzle together than painting a picture. Or something.

The below is what I'd rather be making anyway. Disclaimer I just shat this out to serve as an example. The drums are machine but the rest isn't. I don't play anymore and/because my hands are still fucked/it's boring alone.
Really it's not worth the data it's taking up to exist, but oh well, I'm a prick


it gives me 60's/70's rock vibes. i absolutely love it. It makes one's ears wonder whether they're worthy of hearing it >;D

Very warm, like a campfire and a rock-paper-scissors game mix-mashed together. Lovely. Thank you.
 
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beyond.space

beyond.space

"an elegant suicide is the ultimate work of art"
Oct 30, 2025
47
something i worked on for hours and hours last year

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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,434
Couple newest things in this thread, made for other members (maybe there will be one for you..?)

 
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U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,434
Been a while since I made something I actually enjoy

 
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deeprootdisease

deeprootdisease

( ͒ ́ඉ .̫ ඉ ̀ ͒) they/them
Nov 15, 2025
77
here's some of my art! i really like drawing colorful and cute things :) 1000025050
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rottenhopes

rottenhopes

Member
Nov 13, 2025
13
My child self saving me, taking me away to rest from this awful, unforgiving, worthless world.
 

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Tombadil

Tombadil

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Nov 19, 2025
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two things i did recently that appear nowhere else. A sketch i did for a painting showing how i today feel about working life as someone who has worked with anxiety disorder for decades in jobs i hated, and where people will bully each other like hell just to keep their dead pan job. I am glad i have reached the end of that line. I call it the machine. A machine that eats people. And a sketch i made on the backsite of another painting. Just a female study, and then i added this ripley phrase. Now that i know i am really reaching for peace there is a strange sense of playfulness, as well as melancholia. Perhaps because i have not felt peace for decades. Also a rather unedited text i made after getting some distance to a person i love very much. That was hard but necessary.

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Jake watched the screen of the phone freeze for a moment. Then time itself rewound, as if a wound in time had just opened and closed without anybody noticing.

He was almost amused, it was one of the rare occasions in his life he saw his friend loose his composure.

"You gave away how much?"

"Because i wanted to." Jake said. "You know what i did just to make a small difference.2

Already."

"You know i had to do it." It felt good to give some of your time away to another creature. Preferably, small, furry ones. They are closer to me than most people, always have been."

"I dont think that is the right moment for that."

"There is no moment more right than this. You know i kind of have enough for quite some time. Till i get bored."

He had worked on that for a long time.

As somebody who had lost long years of his life to the impact of the violence of his brutal stepfather and the absolute brutal and cruel environment he had grown up in.

He understood that early, and he understood that there were no such safe future for his kind.

He started making little experiments to see what could be sold, and how, and how to access these bubbles. He placed erotic drawings and stuff to see what would get the most responses, even to find out which body types would be most appreciated, like a market analysis, as he had already understood that the things he wanted to paint were almost impossible to place.

He again looked at his famous friend still struggling with what he just said. Over the distance of time and space, he saw themselves sitting at a table in a luxury flat, something he had not seen before. In front of him he had a present, a little picture of the person sitting on the other side of the desk on a metal keychain.

So much time, yet his friend knew so little about him. Which was how Jake wanted it to be. He could have exploited this person in so many ways, yet he had only ever tried to give without taking."

He looked out at the sky through the open window.

For the first time in his troubled life he had found some kind of peace here.

He still remembered his friend sitting opposite to him, smiling at him. He prepared him for the things to come. They never spoke about Jakes situation, he knew without asking.

Jake already knew, without putting it in words, that his life would gain an extreme weight over time.

He had worked on jobs where he had gone to work with a severe anxiety disorder due to the things done to him, literally trembling and sweating when even coming in contact with any person. Nobody ever offered him help, nobody ever except making jokes of this obviously abused child, still not more of a child.

In years, the weight would add up. He would do certain things to keep up certain friendships and loose days after being drugged with a severe inflammation in his shoulder, being completely traumatized again after seeing a persons name who still haunted his memories spitting in his face and screaming at him in the client data of a job he tried to attend.

He heard his friends voice echoing over the abyss of time.

"To young males, this country is relentless. Even if in need of help, if you are not born into the right checkboxes, they will rather kill you than help you if it does not make them stand out. I know all this from my long years of social and charity. You have to do everything to try to get away."

"We are only cannon fodder." Jake said. "The world never changes, workers children become workers and the elites spawn elites. The networks protect itself."

His friend smiled at him. He handed him an envelope. " I want to take you on a vacation."

Which translated to:" You are one of the persons i can stand in this world."

"I dont like what is happening." His friend said on the phone, in the here and now.

Jake watched at him. He felt the weight of his life enormously, but always a freedom he had never known. He protected almost everybody from the things he had to do in his life, and he would keep it that way.

"What is time?" he said. "Are 3 years walking on the sea shore and feeling the wind worse than 30 years within the machine, always in fear of the inherent violence?"

"If you live one year in peace, in freedom, can you even go back into the machine for good?"

"Sometimes you scare me." His friend said. He looked at Jake. I have been blessed and cursed so much in this life, he thought. I have been blessed with a kind of love i still cannot comprehend more than once.

He looked at the reflection on the screen.

"I have dated a woman, you know. For quite some time now. I think we need some space, so for some time i may call a little less. I am sorry."

Very true, despite being an obvious code for a very different message.

Acts of kindness disguised as cruelty. Spoken in language only a companionship over time and tide can carve out of the words usually used to speak.

Go. You love me to much to accompany me where i am going.

In the evening, Jake entered a bar and ordered a drink. It had an open window to the sea which made up almost the entire wall; only with some blankets on the seatings. He came to the woman sitting on the wall and watching the sea. The wind was still and the air were still warm although it had gotten late for both of them.

It is 2010 and Jake is sitting on the balcony of an expensive hotel in Berlin. There is a man sleeping in the huge bed, and a woman still drinking the last sip of wine. He looks down at the street cloaked in midnight darkness. There is a man sitting in the bus station, alone, with just some bags as his belongings. Just learning to adapt to human presence, mentally and physically, still getting anxiety bursts and starting to shake when in rooms full of people, he knows that the only difference between them is that he is attractive.

He lets the glim of the cigarette die down, puts on a shirt and goes down to the street.

"Can i make a photograph?" He asks the man, who is very young. In his demeanour one can see that he is intelligent. Again Jake is struck by how alike they are. It takes an ungodly amout of self-denial to go on after the things you usually dont come back from. And a reason.

"Please leave me alone." The man says without looking at him once. Jake wants to explain that the wants to paint a picture, to maybe give a bit of a voice, but this voice is already so hollow he just backs down immediately.

He goes into a night shop and buys some groceries, some bread and milk and something to eat and puts it into a bag. On his way back to the hotel he stops at the bus stop and puts down the bag in front of the man without a word, then he makes his way back to the world.


/A story fragment i pieced together after telling a friend almost exactly what is described in the text. I wanted to make a fictional text of it, but what is here happened that way. Feels like a lifetime in this text. I wanted to do a longer text, but it immediately started to stress me out again and i have found some peace now lately. Of course i use a fictional characters
 

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