Venting SH relapse

[rotten]

Tonight I started self harming again. It doesn't even bother me that I just did that...I guess I must be getting worse lol.
In a weird way it was kind of liberating. Before I used to get regular body checks to make sure I'm not hurting myself. For a long time I resorted to clenching my jaw very tightly, which likely caused more irreversible damage. But I decided I will never let anyone strip me again. Afterwards I did what I had to in order to make myself feel calm again.

 

[iwkmsssb]

I would never condemn someone over their unhealthy coping mechanisms if it really helped them, so don't beat yourself up over relapsing. things are really hard right now so do whatever you can to survive just a while longer