red_cardinal
pinniped enthusiast ðŸ¦
- May 25, 2026
- 65
Entry #13
I wish things were easier and intentions would translate to actions more clearly. I wish I didn't feel negative emotions so intensely that it impacts the person I love. I'm heartbroken right now, and angry at myself for failing to offer him the peaceful, harmonious environment we'd imagined together. I'm angry at myself for being wired in such a complicated, impractical way. I thought once you love someone and they love you back, things would be easy... The progress I've made so far is too little to make a difference, and I'm disillusioned. I don't know if I'll ever recover, if I'll ever be free of burden, with struggles that don't impact my and our life.
For what it's worth, I'm still here.
I wish things were easier and intentions would translate to actions more clearly. I wish I didn't feel negative emotions so intensely that it impacts the person I love. I'm heartbroken right now, and angry at myself for failing to offer him the peaceful, harmonious environment we'd imagined together. I'm angry at myself for being wired in such a complicated, impractical way. I thought once you love someone and they love you back, things would be easy... The progress I've made so far is too little to make a difference, and I'm disillusioned. I don't know if I'll ever recover, if I'll ever be free of burden, with struggles that don't impact my and our life.
For what it's worth, I'm still here.
