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ummagumma

ummagumma

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Jan 11, 2024
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im worried about one thing

well, breaking news, were all going to die. but ive been thinking... what if a natural death that awaits you is much more worse than suicide? well, i mean, what if it will not be peaceful, but full of suffering and agony?

what if, when you will be dying, you will think: "my god, i could have died peacefully in my bed, but instead i have to suffer through this"?

although i have read, that near-death experiences are pleasant. well, that would be pretty nice of cruel, cruel life. after all, this is something that every single human is guaranteed to experience
 
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Dongle

Dongle

FIRMLY GRASP IT
Apr 14, 2025
46
I always fear the opposite, I've heard your brain releases DMT when you die and I'm always scared about what it will be like to CTB and whether or not I will get to experience that. Honestly fear has always stopped me
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,528
This is definitely something I'm afraid of. By the time I reach older age, I doubt there will be anyone around me. A penniless isolation with illness on top sounds ghastly to me. I definitely worry I'll leave it too long to CTB but then- I also know I simply can't. I'll simply have to do whatever I need to to avoid that- hopefully well in advance of things becoming that bad.

But yeah- I've seen grandparents and aunts suffer horribly. There's simply no reason for me to go through that- I don't have dependents to be upset if I go.
 
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MimiMiku

MimiMiku

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Jan 19, 2026
26
I'm not sure I feel like both is painful in their own way but dying of old age sounds morbid to me its like a slow death where you pile on different complications until your body eventually shuts down completely. Also some people get dementia they die without remembering anything i can't imagine what their last moments are like if they don't have any memories. I guess it's just up to chance whether you die peacefully in your sleep on a random night or die suffering.
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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I'm already aging. I can't imagine sticking around for the whole decline. I gotta get some guts and step off the chair
 
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