PSH practice

[itwonttakelong]

I'm just rambling here, but I feel fantastic and I wanted to tell someone. As I've said in previous posts, I've been having issues for years due to stress from a past hanging attempt that led me to panic whenever I apply pressure to my neck. I started cognitive-behavioural therapy a bit ago, and while it's not exposure therapy, the doctor did give me some excercises to follow and has helped really clear my mind around the whole situation. I've been easing myself into it, and today I was able to practice PSH without panicking.

I don't think I really passed out, in that I remember everything that happened, but I had music on and it slowly faded away along with my vision, it felt like I was underwater, and I felt my body give up and slump forward and got a tired and calm feeling. I also got a prickling sensation all over my face, like I was being lightly poked with small sharp objects. I got up with an involuntary jolt a second later. I went to look at myself in the mirror and my neck was red and my face was, and still is, full of red dots, like freckles all over, so I imagine the prickling sensation was blood vessels bursting. It's so wonderfully satisfying to look at, it's real evidence of something, I feel so relieved that this might still be an option.

Physically, I still feel light headed and my arms feel weak, but emotionally I'm on top of the world. I really can't wait to try again. I just won't have an empty house again until monday.

 

[Heavy_Metals117]

Glad you're feeling good, that feeling of control over my life is one of the most calming feelings I've ever felt. I just tried PSH for the first time and was able to close the carotids first try. Are you still planning anything today?

 

[itwonttakelong]

Glad you're feeling good, that feeling of control over my life is one of the most calming feelings I've ever felt. I just tried PSH for the first time and was able to close the carotids first try. Are you still planning anything today?

I am, the work day just started a bit ago here. I'm giving it an hour or so, so I don't risk people forgetting something at home. I don't think I'm ready for it to fully succeed yet, but I'm sort of hoping it accidentally does, if that makes sense. I've got the setup and the time, so it should be safe.

I'm glad you're having an easy time with it too, I hope it stays that way! I know I've heard some people struggle to find the right spot even after getting it right before. I think by now I'm able to find it every fourth try or so.

 

[Heavy_Metals117]

I wish you good luck then, and yes the accidentally part totally makes sense. I hope you find peace. And you won't be alone, at least in spirit.

 

[itwonttakelong]

I wish you good luck then, and yes the accidentally part totally makes sense. I hope you find peace. And you won't be alone, at least in spirit.

Thank you very much!! That means a lot. I can't seem to get myself to go near passing out again, but I know that's the most common issue. I'll keep trying