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mute656

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Feb 7, 2026
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Hi everyone. I decided to share my experience in detail because online discussions often focus on doses and methods but rarely describe what actually happens and why things can go wrong. My case is a clear example.

About me:
20-year-old male, weight 90 kg, no tolerance to opioids.

What happened:

· Substance taken: Fentanyl, Aristo tablets, 800 mcg each.
· Amount: 8 tablets (total 6.4 mg). For reference: the lethal dose is considered to be around 2 mg for a person with no tolerance.
· Method of administration: I placed 4 tablets under my upper lip and 4 under my lower lip (sublingually). Time: around 1-2 AM.

What I felt (the last thing I remember):
The effect began within three minutes. It wasn't scary; it felt more like a rapid and complete "shutdown." Then — blackout.

What happened to me (based on my father's account, who found me):
He went to the bathroom around 4-5 AM and heard strange gurgling sounds from my room. When he forced the door open, he found me unconscious. His description: I was blueish-white, not breathing, and completely unresponsive. An empty tablet blister pack was nearby.

The most critical part — what happened next (the chain of rescue):

1. Immediate CPR. My father, following instructions from the emergency operator, started chest compressions. He said I wasn't breathing at all, but when he pressed on my chest, I sometimes made gurgling sounds.
2. Arrival of the first ambulance (~5 minutes later). They used a defibrillator (meaning my heart rhythm was already dangerously disturbed). They immediately administered an injection (most likely naloxone, the opioid antidote) and put an oxygen mask on me.
3. Arrival of a second, reinforced medical team (another 5 minutes later). They administered additional medication, placed me on a stretcher, and transported me to the intensive care unit.
4. In the hospital, doctors spoke of a critical condition and the potential for irreversible brain damage due to prolonged oxygen deprivation. However, by sheer chance, that was avoided. I regained consciousness in the hospital, diagnosed with pneumonia and unable to take a full breath. There were also some changes noted in my heart. I remained hospitalized for a month before being discharged. Fortunately, this episode left no apparent neur
ological consequences.

I hope this account is useful for those analyzing similar situations. Feel free to ask if you have any questions.
 

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egyptian_baddie

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I am so sorry you experienced this, thank you for telling us your experience, hope you find peace!
 
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Tired_birth_1967

Student
Nov 1, 2023
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I'm sorry. You almost made it. I haven't even come close to what you've achieved. She's right there, so close. I really love the idea of not existing. How long will I endure this? It's already been six decades. Will I wait for life to annihilate me the way it usually does? In bed, weak, with feces all over my body... I feel powerless against this damned instinct. I know the game, I know what life is and what it will do randomly as it does to everyone, and yet I'm still here. thank you for telling us your experience
 
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Were you frustrated when you woke up?

Are you going to attempt again using this method?
 
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mute656

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Were you frustrated when you woke up?

Are you going to attempt again using this method?
Yes, I was disappointed.

I want to try SN, as it seems to me like a more reliable method.
 
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ummagumma

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Jan 11, 2024
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Yes, I was disappointed.

I want to try SN, as it seems to me like a more reliable method.
if someone finds you after you take sn you can be saved too

so i would advice to find a place, where no one will find you for a couple of hours 🙏🙏🙏
 
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PartyDress

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Jan 14, 2026
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I'd never be able to forgive anyone who had a hand in resuscitating me.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Sounds like they heard you agonal breathing. I am sorry it did not work out for you. Thank you for sharing your experience.
 
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AnonymousL

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Apr 5, 2023
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Yes, I was disappointed.

I want to try SN, as it seems to me like a more reliable method.
SN is a long process.
I wish I had access to fentanyl. Seems a lot easier. Pretty Sure it would have worked if u didn't get found.
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
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You're lucky to not have had severe withdrawal and addiction

Sorry your plans didn't work. These tablets seem manufactured in Germany. Are you from there ?
 
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mute656

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Feb 7, 2026
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You're lucky to not have had severe withdrawal and addiction

Sorry your plans didn't work. These tablets seem manufactured in Germany. Are you from there ?
I'm from Ukraine, I just found a good supplier on the darknet.

You misunderstood a little. I have never used opioids, and during that attempt, I didn't feel any high. I just instantly passed out and woke up in the hospital.
 
DeathByBananabread

DeathByBananabread

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Dec 30, 2025
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"What I felt (the last thing I remember):
The effect began within three minutes. It wasn't scary; it felt more like a rapid and complete "shutdown." Then — blackout."
oh my god, that sounds ideal. i'm sorry it didn't work out for you.
interesting how being seemingly almost dead for 2 hours didn't leave any lasting neurological consequences. that's my biggest worry and nightmare.
 

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