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Kazu Ha

Kazu Ha

Weird, lonely German Guy
Jul 26, 2025
71
I wanted to share my SN protocol with you all and ask what do you think of it. SN Purity: At least 98%.
For the most part, I stick to the well known SN protocol, with minimal differences:


  • 8 hours before SN: Fasting
  • 2 hours before SN: No more water
  • 1 hour before SN: 2x 10mg Diazepam (Benzos) (20mg in total to combat SI)
  • 40 minutes before SN: 3x 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)

  • Shortly before SN: Using Xylocaine (Lidocaine) 10% spray, to numb my tongue for the SN taste
  • SN Time: Drinking 25g of SN in 50ml plain water (maybe with a straw, but I don't think it's necessary because of my Xylocaine)
  • After SN: Drinking 10x 10mg crushed Diazepam with water (100mg in total, but I can add more)
  • Lay on my bed (on the right side)
  • If I vomit: Drinking my second 25g SN cup
  • Happy End (?)


What are your thoughts?
A few days ago, I took 2x 10mg of Diazepam as a test to see how I would react. I felt slightly lightheaded, but still had complete control over myself. Therefore, I think that one hour before the SN could be a good time.

Theoretically, I could also take more Diazepam after the tasty SN drink (my current plan would be 10x 10mg). I think that's enough, or should I take more?
In the SN protocol I followed, there was something about "50x 10mg Diazepam", but holy cow, that's a lot.
I can try to get other benzos, such as Oxazepam. But I think Diazepam should do the work. Better than nothing, right?
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
I will do the same thing, except I will take 1 or 2 pills of propranolol with the meto, but this is not needed, at all.
Sounds like an optimal protocol to me.
Wish you all the best!
 
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Eclypser

Eclypser

Member
Dec 12, 2025
45
I wanted to share my SN protocol with you all and ask what do you think of it. SN Purity: At least 98%.
For the most part, I stick to the well known SN protocol, with minimal differences:


  • 8 hours before SN: Fasting
  • 2 hours before SN: No more water
  • 1 hour before SN: 2x 10mg Diazepam (Benzos) (20mg in total to combat SI)
  • 40 minutes before SN: 3x 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)

  • Shortly before SN: Using Xylocaine (Lidocaine) 10% spray, to numb my tongue for the SN taste
  • SN Time: Drinking 25g of SN in 50ml plain water (maybe with a straw, but I don't think it's necessary because of my Xylocaine)
  • After SN: Drinking 10x 10mg crushed Diazepam with water (100mg in total, but I can add more)
  • Lay on my bed (on the right side)
  • If I vomit: Drinking my second 25g SN cup
  • Happy End (?)


What are your thoughts?
A few days ago, I took 2x 10mg of Diazepam as a test to see how I would react. I felt slightly lightheaded, but still had complete control over myself. Therefore, I think that one hour before the SN could be a good time.

Theoretically, I could also take more Diazepam after the tasty SN drink (my current plan would be 10x 10mg). I think that's enough, or should I take more?
In the SN protocol I followed, there was something about "50x 10mg Diazepam", but holy cow, that's a lot.
I can try to get other benzos, such as Oxazepam. But I think Diazepam should do the work. Better than nothing, right?
WOW! Excellent, perfect timing in my opinion. My plan is similar, in a hotel. Plus, I'll use beta-blockers. If you've never experienced tachycardia, I assure you it's terrible, but I think Diazepam at that dosage will be your friend. The lidocaine spray is a good move. I was thinking of using an ice cube, but now I'm looking for it. I'll also prepare three graduated glasses with screw caps so it can be mixed well. Plus, I'm considering starting three METOs the day before, one every eight hours. But I'd say we're on track. SN 98% if declared by a reliable supplier, you don't even need a test. Fasting, METO, BENZOS, SN, respect the timing and quantity. That's the plan. (Avoiding rescue, of course)
 
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rearden

New Member
Dec 31, 2025
3
I do not know if are still among us, but good luck and farewell.
 
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Kazu Ha

Weird, lonely German Guy
Jul 26, 2025
71
I do not know if are still among us, but good luck and farewell.
Sadly still here.
I think I'll write a little farewell post here before I go. ♥️
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
I wanted to share my SN protocol with you all and ask what do you think of it. SN Purity: At least 98%.
For the most part, I stick to the well known SN protocol, with minimal differences:


  • 8 hours before SN: Fasting
  • 2 hours before SN: No more water
  • 1 hour before SN: 2x 10mg Diazepam (Benzos) (20mg in total to combat SI)
  • 40 minutes before SN: 3x 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)

  • Shortly before SN: Using Xylocaine (Lidocaine) 10% spray, to numb my tongue for the SN taste
  • SN Time: Drinking 25g of SN in 50ml plain water (maybe with a straw, but I don't think it's necessary because of my Xylocaine)
  • After SN: Drinking 10x 10mg crushed Diazepam with water (100mg in total, but I can add more)
  • Lay on my bed (on the right side)
  • If I vomit: Drinking my second 25g SN cup
  • Happy End (?)


What are your thoughts?
A few days ago, I took 2x 10mg of Diazepam as a test to see how I would react. I felt slightly lightheaded, but still had complete control over myself. Therefore, I think that one hour before the SN could be a good time.

Theoretically, I could also take more Diazepam after the tasty SN drink (my current plan would be 10x 10mg). I think that's enough, or should I take more?
In the SN protocol I followed, there was something about "50x 10mg Diazepam", but holy cow, that's a lot.
I can try to get other benzos, such as Oxazepam. But I think Diazepam should do the work. Better than nothing, right?
I'm gonna do this too I wonder if you are still here
 
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Kazu Ha

Weird, lonely German Guy
Jul 26, 2025
71
I'm gonna do this too I wonder if you are still here
Still here.
I hope everything goes quickly and as painless as possible.

I don't know yet when I'll do it, but hopefully before Valentine's Day. 💔
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
237
Still here.
I hope everything goes quickly and as painless as possible.

I don't know yet when I'll do it, but hopefully before Valentine's Day. 💔
Good luck. :heart:

I was thinking about reconsidering and go with SN, since it's quite easy to get in my country, but don't really want to deal with preparations, so I probably will stick to hanging.
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
Sadly still here.
I think I'll write a little farewell post here before I go. ♥️
When are you going I was curious if you wanted to go at the same time nvm
 
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Kazu Ha

Weird, lonely German Guy
Jul 26, 2025
71
When are you going I was curious if you wanted to go at the same time nvm
I'm not quite sure when exactly.
But I hope it will be before February. Actually, only SI is holding me back. I lost hope a long time ago and I no longer see any meaning in this life.

Have you set a date yet?
Sorry that you are suffering too. We all deserve peace, but life doesn't seem to be kind to us...
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
I'm not quite sure when exactly.
But I hope it will be before February. Actually, only SI is holding me back. I lost hope a long time ago and I no longer see any meaning in this life.

Have you set a date yet?
Sorry that you are suffering too. We all deserve peace, but life doesn't seem to be kind to us...
I'm actually gonna do it today if not today then Friday
 
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Kazu Ha

Weird, lonely German Guy
Jul 26, 2025
71
I'm actually gonna do it today if not today then Friday
I hope that everything will go as smoothly as possible for you. Wish you safe travels. ♥️
But please don't put yourself under pressure if you're still feeling a little unsure.

We're here for you
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
I hope that everything will go as smoothly as possible for you. Wish you safe travels. ♥️
But please don't put yourself under pressure if you're still feeling a little unsure.

We're here for you
Ok
I hope that everything will go as smoothly as possible for you. Wish you safe travels. ♥️
But please don't put yourself under pressure if you're still feeling a little unsure.

We're here for you
Yeah I'm doing it on Friday as I'm a little unsure and still want to eat food
 

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