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TomIsNotMyName

TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
70
I'm planning to CTB on January 23 using SN, without antiemetics.

The time of my CTB may be delayed by 2-3 hours, it depends when my family goes to sleep.

Timezone GMT+1


My Protocol:

January 23, 12:00 AM: Stop Eating
January 23, 11:00 PM: Stop Drinking
January 24, 12:15 AM: Take 600mg of Ibuprofen (without water)
January 24, 12:50 AM: Prepare 3 glasses of 25mg SN, mixed with 80ml water
January 24, 01:00 AM: Drink 1 glass of SN, lay down in bed with music


I'm pretty confident. I haven't vomited in years even after eating disgusting things, but it may be different with SN. That's why I'm going to prepare 3 glasses instead of 2.
I think having a positive mindset plays a big role, but I'm not an expert.
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
Looks good
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
Having 3 glasses sounds like a smart move since you don't have AE. Not having vomited in years is encouraging.
I hope you can find the peace you deserve. Wishing you good luck!
 
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TomIsNotMyName

TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
70
Having 3 glasses sounds like a smart move since you don't have AE. Not having vomited in years is encouraging.
I hope you can find the peace you deserve. Wishing you good luck!
Thank you! 🙂
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,995
I hope you find the freedom you are searching for, I wish you the best.
 
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TomIsNotMyName

TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
70
Okay, an update: I'm now going to use Antacids as well. I cannot edit the post, so I'll just post the new protocol here:

January 23, 12:00 AM: Stop Eating
January 23, 11:00 PM: Stop Drinking
January 24, 12:15 AM: Take 600mg of Ibuprofen (without water)
January 24, 12:30 AM: Take Antacids
January 24, 12:50 AM: Prepare 3 glasses of 25mg SN, mixed with 80ml water
January 24, 01:00 AM: Drink 1 glass of SN, lay down in bed with music
 
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InvasionOfPublicity

InvasionOfPublicity

finding redemption.
Jun 5, 2023
38
Best of luck, friend! Hope it all goes well and you find peace on the other side :)
 
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otium

looking for the peace i crave
Aug 10, 2025
46
Good luck, may you find peace. Godspeed.
 
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SufferingDev

SufferingDev

this.dispose();
Aug 4, 2024
70
Farewell! Find peace you are looking for.
 
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fuzun

Member
Dec 28, 2025
11
Will you provide an update when you take it? Best wishes, regardless.
 
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TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
70
Will you provide an update when you take it? Best wishes, regardless.
I will write a comment just before I take it. If I fail, I will tell you the symptoms I experienced
 
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hearthewind

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Nov 23, 2020
14
Hope you find peace at the other end
 
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darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,545
good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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Hermitcrab

Not an actual crab
Nov 28, 2025
22
Best wishes! May you find peace <3
 
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TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
70
Only 8 more hours, I'm kinda hungry. That's a good sign. I have a good feeling about this
 
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NoHorizon

A pig in a cage on antibiotics
Nov 22, 2022
406
I hope you find peace.
 
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Dür Ktulhu

Member
Dec 20, 2025
37
Oh, my dear friend, you are in such a positive mood. I will wait and think of you all this time. Ah, I think it's better to take a little valium or another benzodiazepine - calmness will help preserve resolve; anxiety and panic are the main enemies on this long night.
 
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TomIsNotMyName

TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
70
I hope you find peace.
Thank you :heart:
Oh, my dear friend, you are in such a positive mood. I will wait and think of you all this time. Ah, I think it's better to take a little valium or another benzodiazepine - calmness will help preserve resolve; anxiety and panic are the main enemies on this long night.
Thank you, but it's too late for me to get them now anyway. But I'll be alright even without them :heart:
 
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InvasionOfPublicity

InvasionOfPublicity

finding redemption.
Jun 5, 2023
38
Hey man, just wanted to wish you some final goodbyes. i hope it all goes well and you finally are freed from any suffering this existence has brought you.
 
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TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
70
Hey man, just wanted to wish you some final goodbyes. i hope it all goes well and you finally are freed from any suffering this existence has brought you.
Thank you so much for your kind words 🫂:heart:
 
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Bimbosqualo

Member
Mar 19, 2025
95
Have a safe journey. I hope you find what you're looking for 🤗❤️
 
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Melophobia

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Good luck, I hope everything goes well.
 
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