burninghill
Experienced
- Dec 2, 2025
- 206
I don't know what he sees in me. Maybe it's because he doesn't know I'm depressed but I really don't understand.
I never thought I could love someone, he makes me want to be all corny and I want to talk about him all the time. It's so nice, but even he isn't there when I visualise the desert that is my future.
It makes me feel so immeasurably guilty. I sit awake at night crying wishing I was a different person so I could love him the way he deserves.
He lost his dad and his brother in the last 6 years and I'm going to die too. What an evil person I am. I wish that I never met him, because there's no world where I could've met him and had the guts not to talk to him because I know I'm suicidal. I just wish he never existed so that I never have to let him down.
I never thought I could love someone, he makes me want to be all corny and I want to talk about him all the time. It's so nice, but even he isn't there when I visualise the desert that is my future.
It makes me feel so immeasurably guilty. I sit awake at night crying wishing I was a different person so I could love him the way he deserves.
He lost his dad and his brother in the last 6 years and I'm going to die too. What an evil person I am. I wish that I never met him, because there's no world where I could've met him and had the guts not to talk to him because I know I'm suicidal. I just wish he never existed so that I never have to let him down.
