most of the time i don't like this site

[forfever]

90% percent of the time i'm here i'm actively wishing i was doing something else
in fact, i'm gonna go. see you later probably

 

[mysticatedwine]

you're so real for this

 

[Jadeith]

Take a virtual hug with you. Dunno if you got any use for these but still.... you know..... just in case.
Have a nice and safe day.

 

[OOUUneverover]

To be fair, the entire purpose of this place is to suck. We're all miserable lmao.

 

[U. A.]

Based.

 

[rs929]

It's probably the saddest place on the internet

 

[usernamegoeshere]

wishing u the best as u go forward!! proud of u for being able to leave <33

 

[eggsausagerice]

90% percent of the time i'm here i'm actively wishing i was doing something else
in fact, i'm gonna go. see you later probably

yes dude!!!!!!!! yes!!!!
literally i went to a choir performance with my friend tonight and i have to go to a birthday party and i have to buy christmas presents and whatever whatever, but i'm still on here even though i actually enjoy those things way more. i actually actively dislike being on this website because people die and that's depressing, people recover and that's depressing, and i only go on here when i'm in a bad mood. this site actually isn't fun to be on at all lol. i come crawling back because even when i have stuff to do i have a compulsion to check my notifications or my feed like this is twitter. this place just seems to ooze despair and self loathing, but people will always crave negativity in a pre-packaged box like this. sometimes this site makes me so sad that i get bored and i feel the need to do anything else. i made a goodbye post then spiraled immediately afterwards because i have no other support system besides sasu.

you're so real for this

Based.

made me lol

 

[SarahThrowsGin]

Am I alone in thinking differently then? For me SaSu is the only forum worth visiting, places I used to be (not dedicated to subject of CTB) were definitely worse, and let's not even begin on social networks, those are brain damage. Visiting SaSu has made it possible for me to read books again by getting accustomed to read long walls of text. To me being here results in improvement of my cognition, as I can filter out depressing stuff but need to read non-slop on daily basis in order to be able to read non-slop at all. Social networks mess up ability to focus and direct attention willfully, SaSu is a good counter to that, because unlike other forums I know this place is non-toxic and a lot of what people talk here is relatable to at least some extent.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

i have a love-hate relationship w/ this site honestly. it's much better than most online spaces i've been to, but i really only come here to sulk....in which i spend most of my days doing. wish i had the energy to try and limit my time here, but i can't help myself :,) no matter how much i try to distract myself, i always end up coming back here...

 

[WakingNightmare]

I like being here, I would probably want to do something else if I had something else I liked doing

 

[kuroshimi]

Sometimes it may seem like a sad place. But for some reason I like being here. Maybe I would like to do something else, but still visit this site sometimes. I'm quite vulnerable in this regard, probably because my life existed entirely on the internet.

Also, this site is part of my english learning lmao.

 

[Jadeith]

Am I alone in thinking differently then?

No, you are not. It's about only place where i'm not being judged for what i am or how i feel. And a feeling of being useful, whether i help someone with their research or recovery is a nice bonus too.

 

[telekon]

yes dude!!!!!!!! yes!!!!
literally i went to a choir performance with my friend tonight and i have to go to a birthday party and i have to buy christmas presents and whatever whatever, but i'm still on here even though i actually enjoy those things way more. i actually actively dislike being on this website because people die and that's depressing, people recover and that's depressing, and i only go on here when i'm in a bad mood. this site actually isn't fun to be on at all lol. i come crawling back because even when i have stuff to do i have a compulsion to check my notifications or my feed like this is twitter. this place just seems to ooze despair and self loathing, but people will always crave negativity in a pre-packaged box like this. sometimes this site makes me so sad that i get bored and i feel the need to do anything else. i made a goodbye post then spiraled immediately afterwards because i have no other support system besides sasu.



made me lol

I find it very intellectually stimulating. It's possible that's because I have a very morbid personality, but you learn more about the human condition by being on this site and it can be fun if you're into that sort of thing.

Also, when I'm depressed and I sit here for a long time, I can feel something happening in my brain. There is a strange calming effect, like a drug almost. There's the lyric that says "you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness," and I think this is what he meant in that song. The site itself acts like a depressant drug.

 

[Cloud Busting]

I find it very intellectually stimulating. It's possible that's because I have a very morbid personality, but you learn more about the human condition by being on this site and it can be fun if you're into that sort of thing.

Also, when I'm depressed and I sit here for a long time, I can feel something happening in my brain. There is a strange calming effect, like a drug almost. There's the lyric that says "you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness," and I think this is what he meant in that song. The site itself acts like a depressant drug.

God I love Somebody that I Used to Know. Great song and a nice homage to Peter Gabriel and Sting.

I don't know. When I was suicidal, I needed this site. It was a godsend. Now, I can only take so much until I need to tap out. I guess I just pussified. Sometimes this place can feel too much like an echo chamber really. But I've learned a lot too, and read Shopenhauer (whom I found more helpful than most therapists I've ever seen, think pain is more from existence and desire than thinking negative thoughts honestly, cognitive distortion bs just pissed me off and I gave that shit a fair shake) thanks to recs from this site. Learning about philosophy and worldviews has been helpful.

But I don't know, I'm not the kind of person who can provide hospice care or be a dula, it gets too much for me. Cool people and ideas to be had here but yeah I resonate with OP. Idk how else to say it

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Am I alone in thinking differently then? For me SaSu is the only forum worth visiting, places I used to be (not dedicated to subject of CTB) were definitely worse, and let's not even begin on social networks, those are brain damage. Visiting SaSu has made it possible for me to read books again by getting accustomed to read long walls of text. To me being here results in improvement of my cognition, as I can filter out depressing stuff but need to read non-slop on daily basis in order to be able to read non-slop at all. Social networks mess up ability to focus and direct attention willfully, SaSu is a good counter to that, because unlike other forums I know this place is non-toxic and a lot of what people talk here is relatable to at least some extent.

Totally this. I wish I found this place sooner, it might have even saved my life. This is a wonderful community and website.

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

i understand tbh. i've been in such a bad spot and this site has been helpful... but when i start feeling better (if i ever do) i'll assume i'll want to stay away.