May this be my last month on this shithole planet

[bellaisdonewithlife]

It would be so much easier to die in your sleep and I hope I die in my sleep sometime over the next week. I need to figure out where to find the suicidal people in BC. I think this is going to be my last month, but you never know.

 

[SASU-KE]

I used to pray for that to happen every night before I slept. But I already knew that no one or nothing listened to my prayers. But what a wonderful way to go. Peaceful. Family doesn't feel guilty. There's no investigation. No n̶o̶o̶s̶e̶ loose ends to be tied.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also just hope and wish to fall asleep permanently and never suffer in this torturous, futile existence ever again, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

I used to pray for that to happen every night before I slept. But I already knew that no one or nothing listened to my prayers. But what a wonderful way to go. Peaceful. Family doesn't feel guilty. There's no investigation. No n̶o̶o̶s̶e̶ loose ends to be tied.

I'm surprised this damn illness hasn't killed me yet. Why do I have to live with a lifelong incurable illness, I survived a decade of hell, and deal with some awful symptoms, meanwhile some people get sick and die within 6 months or a year. It's messed up.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

I feel you. Have lost over a decade of my life to my ongoing battle with health issues that became debilitating. I'm only gonna lose another decade and another after that....

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

I feel you. Have lost over a decade of my life to my ongoing battle with health issues that became debilitating. I'm only gonna lose another decade and another after that....

I just don't understand the unfairness of life. Some of us suffer like this from our teens whereas some people have vacation lifetimes and golden toilets. Heck even an average life would be decent enough for me.

I have other genetic problems on top of this that don't make life worth living at all to me. I can't date and I am totally numb with anhedonia just going through the motions with everything I do. I don't think I'm going to make it past this month.

 

[walliwalli]

i'll drink to that!! i'm also hoping i can go in march. i don't want to endure another month.

 

[Xiaojiu]

I'm surprised this damn illness hasn't killed me yet. Why do I have to live with a lifelong incurable illness, I survived a decade of hell, and deal with some awful symptoms, meanwhile some people get sick and die within 6 months or a year. It's messed up.

Damn, I feel you. I'm also on this site due to chronic illnesses and chronic pain too. So? I understand you

 

[doomedbynarrative]

I just don't understand the unfairness of life. Some of us suffer like this from our teens whereas some people have vacation lifetimes and golden toilets. Heck even an average life would be decent enough for me.

I have other genetic problems on top of this that don't make life worth living at all to me. I can't date and I am totally numb with anhedonia just going through the motions with everything I do. I don't think I'm going to make it past this month.

Right? I mean they say everyone has struggles but it genuinely feels like my struggles are especially heinous and I would give anything to have Normal People Struggles instead of whatever the hell this is...