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kishi

kishi

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Nov 25, 2024
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Like I keep hurting people I love even though I try to associate with them as little as possible, my existence is just causing pain to anyone or everyone, that makes me wish I never fucking existed. I know it's the truth, I need to be constantly distracted to keep me away from those thoughts. I can't sleep well and all those cliche depressing things you've heard before... Like fuck whenever I think I'm good it all comes crashing down. Anyways this is just a some random ah vent idk, what to say Merry Christmas or whatever...
 
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NutOrat

Falling Down
Jun 11, 2025
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Totally feel you on this 🫂. I can't live without hurting those who love me the most... Distractions, distractions, distractions. And for what? To eventually snap, like I always end up doing? When will it end? I know dying isn't the answer, because I'll hurt them even more than I ever would in my lifespan, but then what the fuck do I do? I don't know. I wish I had the answers for you.

I think the fact that you're concerned about this shows that you possess redeemable qualities, if that brings you any comfort. I also like your pfp, what's it from? Merry Christmas...? Soon! ☃️🎄🎁
 
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InevitableDeath

Already Dead
Jan 4, 2026
293
I need to be constantly distracted to keep me away from those thoughts. I can't sleep well and all those cliche depressing things you've heard before... Like fuck whenever I think I'm good it all comes crashing down. Anyways this is just a some random ah vent idk, what to say Merry Christmas or whatever...
Late Xmas present for constant distractions Welcome • freemediaheckyeah
 
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CerebralVortex

CerebralVortex

Member
Apr 26, 2025
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Totally feel you on this 🫂. I can't live without hurting those who love me the most... Distractions, distractions, distractions. And for what? To eventually snap, like I always end up doing? When will it end? I know dying isn't the answer, because I'll hurt them even more than I ever would in my lifespan, but then what the fuck do I do? I don't know. I wish I had the answers for you.

I think the fact that you're concerned about this shows that you possess redeemable qualities, if that brings you any comfort. I also like your pfp, what's it from? Merry Christmas...? Soon! ☃️🎄🎁
Not the original poster, but im fairly sure its from the web series Suicide Boy
 
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