
fantasticalreality
New Member
- Sep 29, 2025
- 4
brushing my teeth, showering, working, sleeping, eating, forever until i die. how miserable sounding, how do people put a positive spin on these things? im just tired and frustrated with having to do this everyday, i didnt ask for it. its like my soul is so deeply lazy, and so deeply tired. i dont want to do anything but play video games in bed, like a sad loser. even if i work and go to college and achieve my wildest dreams a part of me wonders if this persistent sadness will still be under the layers of distraction. it all feels hopeless, but im too scared to die and want to experience the best things i can, since the chance to live is so special even if it comes with many hardships. but its hard to imagine dealing with this for the rest of my life. i suppose i either will, or i wont. only two roads in front of me